bumbass2003

My late spouse passed almost 3 years ago of a brain tumor. My family are interstate and I have never built a network of friends.

I have since married and now have a 7 month daughter. I was desperate to move forward with my life. I am sure I rushed at this.

I cannot speak of this to my wife, we have spoken in the past about it, but all it does is end up hurting her. You cannot compete with someone that is no longer present and in someone's fantasy.

I still have her ashes in the garage, and obviously ignoring this does not make it fade away. I am unsure if I love my current wife, but I want to do the best for my daughter.

I still feel guilty and angry about her passing. She was such a greater person than me, and if I had a choice I would have died for her. All I can do about my anger is rationalize it, as no one was to blame, it never gets directed anywhere.

I don't know what to do