Bella's Mommi

I have this piece of crap computer currently using it as a night stand. (the PCU, not the monitor). Have a Wacom tablet I want to use on its own workstation. My boyfriend is an ITech Guy so he can build this computer. But I want to tell him what I want rather than him tell me. So before I even sound like a ditz and ask him something he'll say is impossible, I want to be sure it's really impossible. Can I update this Dimension 4100. It would help us financially to make it, I think, than spending on a laptop. I just want to use it for Graphic Design, GIMP, maybe photoshop, but only if RAM can be accelerated. What should I do to upgrade memory, the System, etc.

Thanks for your opinions.

My doctor pressured me into scheduling induced labor. He is going out of town and wants to deliver my baby before then, and I was asking to wait until he returns (so what if baby comes when he is gone? do his oncall doctors really make him feel bad about delivering his patients?!). There is no medical reason, because I am not at all late, and might even induce before my daughter has a chance to come on her own. I'm on medicaid and don't really feel like I have the power to change my doctor at 40 weeks! He got my boyfriend very upset by acting as though baby would be too late next week....but she will only be one week late! It's just ironic that he's going out of town wednesday through sunday and suggests I delivery tuesday before he leaves. I agreed after all the pressure--20 minutes of salespitching--and because my boyfriend seemed concerned there would be a fatality next week. BS! How do I say no to my doctor? I've been crying for three days non stop because I feel jipped and lied to and that my right to try natural labor has been taken a away from me! I want a different doctor but it's too late! I don't know how to make my doctor realize he's a jerk and taking advantage of my late stage of pregnancy! I'm on medicaid so it's even harder for me to figure out what to do! I want a different doctor! I want a natural labor, there is no reason to think she won't come wednesday, thurs, or friday, but he's going to be out of town! I am appalled that he cares little about pushing the labor induction when it's not medically necessary. I tried saying no several times but he kept pressuring us, and gave us all these reasons why if we wait until next week the conditions get worse. But he failed to mention that she might just come on her own when he's out of town. The reason he didn't tell us that part is because he cares only about himself, his partners in practice, and I don't even know how to stop this guy from putting his selfish needs in front of my very first experience having a baby. I said, "Well if i haven't even started dialating, I will have a c-section!" and he did not object at all. he grinned because I said I'd have the baby next Tuesday! Hello doctor! Could you tell my doctor that the risks behind a cesarean are much worse than having a baby one week "late"? (At 41 weeks, that's not even late!) We've been healthy at every appointment, her heart rate, my blood pressure is low, everything is perfect. He's taking advantage of our health and trying to manipulate us into doing something I don't want to do! But my boyfriend cannot fathom a doctor trying to get us to do something on his schedule. And the doctor tried to sound so sinister when he said "What's best for mommy might not be best for baby". As if a natural delivery that might occur when he is out of town is worse for baby than an induced labor! I AM SO MAD, SO ANGRY, I WANT TO DO SOMETHING TO THE DOCTOR TO MAKE HIM STRAIGHTEN UP, BE ETHICAL, AND ALLOW US THE RIGHT WE DESERVE INSTEAD OF TREATING US LIKE WE DON'T DESERVE ANYTHING BECAUSE WE'RE NOT DOCTORS, WE'RE ON MEDICAID, we're just another set of patients without our individual desires and expectations. Trust me, there's nothing wrong with me waiting, except that my doctor will be unhappy and I'm scared to say no because he looks so pissed off that i feel like my body, my baby's health, my dreams of having my first delivery, are all unimportant because we're just another statistic, and based on those statistics he thinks we'll be fine...so what if we're fine!? What does fine mean? Walking, talking afterwards? What about my baby getting to experience her very first swim, and what about me giving a birth when she's ready and not when doctor wants? I can't believe I ended up with an unethical doctor, and here I am, scared to death to disappoint him when this moment is the most important of my life, and to him it's just another baby coming at a time that he wishes he could change--oh wait, thanks science, he can! so he does it, not giving a sh about us! P.S. when we toured the hospital a nurse said to me, "Oh you've got Dr. S? If you feel uncomfortable at the end of your pregnancy he'll let you go a week early!" And I remember saying nothing but of course thinking, "i will never induce early". That nurse had three kids! For me, being my first, I don't want to induce and get it over with! I want to experience the whole 9 yards! What do I do! How do I deal with pissing off a doctor who holds my baby's life in his hands? I hate him! But I can't change doctors this late, can I? WHAT DO I DO! Tuesday we go to the hospital to do something I feel is terribly wrong to do! HELP ME!