dangerouspoet

she loves my gaze

and glows in the fierce light of my stare

like a flower,

she turns and turns to find me.

she calls me her big spring

says i do everything i do

with a gushing feeling.

she likes to touch my stomach

a heavy sex toy

i’m sorry i can’t justify that.

what is the destiny of a body of water

does it flow forever?

dry up in the sun?

does it run bitter with

no one to marvel at its consistency?

she calls me her big spring

because i’m always going going going

and cool.

she likes to touch my stomach

like a hot water bottle between us

i’m sorry i can’t condone that.

i flow from her, a wave

she is baptized in the sum of us.

she flows from me, a tide

i am renewed in the wake of us.

will i stand by and watch us rushing

onward, forward, toward

and wish she weren’t so happy about it?

she calls me her big spring

giving, babbling and free.

i’m not so free.

she likes to touch my stomach

a soft globe of warmth

i’m sorry i can’t rely on that.

she likes to touch my stomach

i’m sorry.

Please, serious replies if you can muster 'em. Writing a novel, need white male input. Character is a college professor, married to a professional black woman who is having an "identity crisis" based on her discovery that he's been having an affair with one of his students (a WHITE girl). Sort of stuck on the reasons he might have been "attracted" to his (black) wife, and how her insecurities might affect him on a psychological level. Don't want to make it about race, but I don't have much research to go on other than my own relationships with white men, which haven't necessarily been anything like what I'm writing. Any information on how white men approach women of color, in particular black women, and what are their expectations going into a relationship--the factors that would lead to a marriage between two very different psychologies based on American history of slavery, and the ambivalence that has ensued between them. Thanks all!

ps. all answers considered, of course.