Jessica

I don't know where to begin. Pathetic to have to resort to the internet for help, but I gave up most of my friends for him so no one to turn to atm! Closest friend is 4000 miles away. Well, I'm 19, a mom to a 7 month old baby boy, and I am engaged to his dad, the guy I've known since I was 15. He is 21. I've already graduated highschool, and am taking distance courses to become a holistic doctor eventually. Sounds pretty good right? I know what I want for the most part. Except him. Except for L. We fight at least twice a week. And for him, its always a contest to win. I try being civilized, telling him up front what my problem is, and his reply is...silence. I ask him, after 3 years together and birthing your child, thats the kind of respect I get? his reply...I don't respect you. I ask him if "cleaning house, taking care of your child, leaving the work force, moving a province away from friends and family, doing the grocery shopping, - " isn't a viable enough reason to respect me. his reply...nope. i ask him wtf his issue with me...again silence. Calls me a *****, an idiot, a retard, tells me to **** off go back home EVERY time we argue. I admit I've got a wicked temper and I don't always control it very well, and my chronic depression gets in the way sometimes. Yet everytime we get into an argument, I've got a shitstorm around my head and I don't even know what its about!!! He goes to work for 8 hours, comes home and goes straight onto WoW. doesn't even do dishes or cooks or watches his kid. cause he thinks a teething baby is a breeze and i dont deserve a break, cause hes the only tired one around here n being tired n penniless means you cant have other hobbies.

I got one foot out the door, and then I think about the roses he gave me the one time after we fought, and the cake he bought for me, my mom, and grams on mothers day. About the poems he used to write, and the person he used to be in the first 6 months of our relationship that I never saw again. We've got nothing in common anymore, except for a child.

I've become such a weak willed dark tempered **** and everything in me is telling me to just suck it the hell up and bite my tongue so our son can have a two parent household with all the things my own absent father couldn't provide.

Pretty much my whole dating experience is him. I don't know what other men are like, if this is typical. The few guys I dated before him were done in a matter of three months and two of three cheated on me. Do I just attract broken men? I've got nothing but the best intentions for myself, yet I keep ending up in these bloody nasty situations.

Where do I go? Stay, or leave? Have faith in his good side, or have faith in bad side? Do I give up on a man that is a good friend but a horrible partner in arguments? He's got the sex drive, I don't cause its painful; they stitched me back up too tight post-birth n I rip every single time so I feel bad about that too. I feel like I love him more than he loves me back. But what do I know?

I'm on the verge of tears I'm so stressed right now.. I'm 20 weeks pregnant, haven't been able to find a job, so I'm depending on my fiance. He makes 2200 a month average after taxes. With bills/debt and rent, 1500 is taken. With food, 550. Sounds doable right? Well add into the equation that we have now have my fiance's dad living with us, and his brother tonight moving in and soon his sister because the mother is a drug addicted child hitter. Oh and, we are moving this weekend! We live in a very small town, so jobs are minimal and what there is, is on a hiring freeze. I don't know what to do anymore If I wasn't preg I'd skip eating, but I can't. I lost one child already because of stress like this. But the problem keeps popping up. Two teenagers, and three grown adults. on 2200 a month?!? OM FG someone please help me figure out how to get through this how to not stress myself into another miscarriage how we financially can afford this. My family can't help, and my fiances family is what started this whole problem...

I live in a dinky town and I we don't have a vehicle, no public transport, no dvd jack on my ancient tv to do workout vids, and I'm quite frankly sick of just walking. Plus the pool is too far to walk to and were not allowed pets at our place either! I'm stuck on what to do. Someone help please! Thanks

Personally, I hate when the cheese block is cut crooked, when people think they can just rub my pregnant belly(like hellllo its attached don't touch me) and when guys piss all over the toilet seat and don't wipe it up.. thanks now my *** is wet..

I'm curious to know some other weird pet-peeves people have... so enlighten me please!

I conceived on July 6th 09, but the due date is getting harder to figure out. Especially with these online trackers because it says I'm anywhere between 14wks to 17wks. Three due dates that were reoccurring were March 29th, April 6, 9, & 12th... Help? (2nd pregnancy including previous miscarriage)