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My ex & father of our 16-month-old son has been telling me, his friends, co-workers, his family, & our son that I'm a bad mother. I asked him why does he think this & he gave me a dozen diff. answers that didn't prove his point, but made me feel lyke crap. He says because I'm bipolar that I'm a bad mother & I don't treat our son right. He said that since I don't treat him (my ex) nicely that shows I don't love our son. He said I constantly neglect him & I don't love him or care about him. He said I get impatient at times (which I do & I'm working on it) & that I mistreat him. I admit that I'm not mother of the year but I truly love my son with my whole heart. I tell him I love him every single day at least 50 times a day. I bathe him, I feed him, I sing to him, play with him, read to him. He's all I ever talk about..yea I get frustrated sometimes & I say things I don't mean but my life revolves around him. My Facebook is practically dedicated to him cause he's all I ever post about! He's at the appropriate weight, height, & developmental stages for his age. I cried the day he was born, when he took his first steps, & when he said his first word. Hell I still check on him at night to make sure he's breathing even though I know he'll be okay. I constantly praise him for all his accomplishments but my ex says that I'm lying & that I don't care about him. I don't understand what I'm doing wrong or how he could think this. He now has all these people thinking I neglect my child when I don't. He intends to go after custody & he plans to use all this against me with the help of his friends & family. He said I'm not fit to be a mother since I have bipolar but I see two therapists & I'm currently on meds. I spoke to three diff. therapists & they said having bipolar doesn't make me a bad mother. They also said my illness isn't too extreme where I'm considered a danger to my son. I'm actually starting to think I am a bad mother though, because people he associates with claim to have "seen" the effect that my bipolar & supposed neglect have done to him. I don't understand I thought I was doing everything right but all these people (some who I haven't even met) think I neglect & mistreat my son. On top of all this he told my son that I don't love him! I asked him if he truly feels this way then why does he leave our son around me & he had no answer. I aslo explained to him that if what he says is true then our son wouldn't be fed, bathed, changed, or at the correct developmental stages. I told him if I truly didn't love our son or take care of him then he wouldn't always give me kisses, hugs, or want to be held by me. He wouldn't cry when I leave the room or smile at me when he sees me. I'm just so confused!! I know he's wrong but his words have deeply affected me. I can't eat, I can't sleep, I've been crying about it nonstop because I'm just heartbroken. Obviously he sees something I don't so I'm terrified of losing my son. Could I be a bad mother & not even know about it?

I don't know what happened to me I used to be so outgoing and could strike up a conversation with anybody now I'm the complete opposite. I get really nervous when I'm around big groups of people and sometimes I don't even go out. I'm 20 years old I have very few friends in my area and I wanna make friends so badly. I'm always getting invited to events in my neighborhood but I'm too nervous to go. I also have a 15-month-old son and I want him to have a playmate but I can't seem to get it together. What could have happened?