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what i mean is if you turn the next age at 12 am that day or not until the hour you were born? see i was born 11 pm or a little after on may 5, 1990 so almost may 6 lol so say on my 18th birthday was i still 17 on may 5, 2008 until 11 pm that day or was i actually 18 at 12 am that day? i think i was still 17 technicaly until 11 pm that day what do you think? so what im asking is each new age you turn every year are you officially that age at 12 am on your birthday or not officially until the ACTUAL hour you were born on that day?

see when i was born back on May 5, 1990, it was a little after 11 pm, so my birthday is almost may 6 so on every year of my birthday say when on my 18th birthday was i ACTUALLY 18 at 12 am on may 5, 2008 or was i not officially 18 until 11 pm on may 5, 2008? i am 23 almost 24 now lol that was in 2008 lol i always thought it should be official on the time your actually born on that day and NOT literally 12 am that day even if it is your birthday lol

lol meaning between 12 am and 11 pm on my birthday! the same day

lol see on my birthday i was born a little after 11 pm so on every year of my birthday say when on my 18th birthday was i ACTUALLY 18 at 12 am on that day or was it not official until 11 pm that day? i am 23 almost 24 now lol that was in 2008 lol i always thought it should be official on the time your actually born on that day lol

i dont know much about it but it is upbeat and happy sounding with some trumpets and percussion and in the chrous i think i heard the words "to yourself", which is in the chorus and "city lights" i heard it in a lounge im not usually into this kind of music and i usually listen to country and rock, and the ending has a laser type bass beat i think and it might be from the 90s but the ending is instrumental with a trumpet but is happy sounding lol almost has a salsa mexican dance sound to it lol or a game show sounding theme i might of heard the word love in the lyrics lol

it is NOT rap/hip hop. Idk what genre but maybe alternative or something and it is NOT techno or any kind of music like that!

i dont know much about it but it is upbeat and happy sounding with some trumpets and percussion and in the chrous i think i heard the words "to yourself" and "city lights" i heard it in a lounge im not usually into this kind of music and i usually listen to country and rock, and the ending has a laser type bass beat i think and it might be from the 90s but the ending is instrumental with a trumpet but is happy sounding lol almost has a salsa mexican dance sound to it lol or a game show sounding theme i might of heard the word love in the lyrics lol

i know especially in older video games NHL players are rated from 50-99. I always assumed anything under 50 is NOT NHL calibre! but what would players in the AHL, ECHL or CHL (Major Junior) or NCAA players realistically be rated at? i still think MOST of them are not good enough to be rated 50-99! of course i mean they are rated on they're puck control, passing, skating speed, dekeing, shot accuracy, hitting, ETC, but yet on NHL 14 there is AHL players and CHL players with attributes that are in the 70s or 80s! that just does not make sense to me! i know it's a game but those players will never play a game in the NHL in real life! and is the 50s or 60s ratings even good enough to play in the NHL? lol i love editing attributes on games! compared to NHL 06 and NHL 14 more players in NHL 06 are in the 50s and 60s ratings but most in NHL 14 are more in the 70s and 80s! even the tough guys/enforcers lol! which is good we all know they can do more in hockey than just fight! so again my main question is what would ECHL/AHL/CHL players be rated at if they were legitimately evaluated! because i think anything under 50 is NOT pro level im real life! im just curious sorry for the long description lol but i am a Canadian hockey fan!

i want to start by saying i am going to the doctor in two days (scared to death lol) after reading this tell me what you think i might hear and if i have to go to a hospital ect,

see back in august of 2010 i had a sore throat for 8 or nine days and now at age 23 i think i will die in the next two years (i am 23 and was 20 in august 2010) and for the last year and a half i have had what felt like pressure and gas stuck in my chest (sometimes pain and when i belch my throat burns sometimes) which i thought were heart palpitations or warning heart attacks, im still alive lol but have been drinking and getting drunk over 100 times since then! i have asperger's and obsessive compulsive disorder! i have been drinking too much since two years ago and before! why am i still alive after two years of not being treated? does it sound like it's too late for it to be completelyeated? am i really dying or is this all in my head? im too afraid to go to the doctor because of being told im dying and to stop drinking, both things that will terrify me! let me explain whats going on, since october of 2010 i have noticed on the back half of my tongue is a white patch with red bumps and i have been coughing up clear snot and clearing my throat not so much as i used to (i assume that means im closer to dying) i used to think it was throat cancer and i have a few lumps in my jawline (noticed since about january 2011) but i have had gas in my chest that feels like pressure even after eating and it feels like my heart is beating faster i have checked my pulse and it was sometimes 84 bpm and over 90 bpm a few times lol even in the later half of 2010 i thought i was dying and 2011 but now in 2013 i think this is the real thing! IM NOT JOKING AT ALL of what i all said! this is all real since august 2010! i have been drinking for almost 5 years! :) i have asked this before and people said it wasn't cancer or a heart condition, but i think differently! i am a pessimist! i predict i will die before age 30! i was never very ambitious! or even after carrying furniture up the stairs i feel my heart beat through my chest for a little bit! i was never very active and never eat the best diet! do i sound like i have or am dying from a two year throat infection/heart condition? and again im HONEST of what i all said! NO LIES! am i really dying or what? but like i said i have still found myself drinking/getting blackout drunk many times through all this!

also recently people have said to me i look pale and have lost some weight which i have ( a few pounds i am a little thinner but always have been thin) someone said i might have endocardittis)

so when i finally do go to the doctor will life support be an option or get hospitalized? serious question so i expect serious, honest answers

also since october i have noticed my neck pulse beating! scary, scary stuff lol i also dont drink as much as i used to i drink everyday but mostly 2-3 beers a day

sorry for all the information but my stools float and are loose sometimes with little foam like bubbles

and if they have light brown hair/auburn hair or dark blonde hair im only asking this because i fit into that category myself and most individuals and myself appear in my dreams, and as always dreams are distorted and make no sense! lol but pale skinned whites like myself with blue or light green eyes and light brown hair appear in them! i will say that humans are the MOST realistic looking in my dreams lol! that feeling you get when you see a pale skinned female with blue eyes and light brown hair and the right facial features and a dream like smile/look is amazing! :) and me and them have crooked and distorted smiles even in real life!

and if they have light brown hair/auburn hair or dark blonde hair im only asking this because i fit into that category myself and most individuals and myself appear in my dreams, and as always dreams are distorted and make no sense! lol but pale skinned whites like myself with blue or light green eyes and light brown hair appear in them! i will say that humans are the MOST realistic looking in my dreams lol! that feeling you get when you see a pale skinned female with blue eyes and light brown hair and the right facial features and a dream like smile/look is amazing! :) and me and them have crooked and distorted smiles even in real life!

so imagine it is a cloudy thursday or wednesday night whether it is in 1998, 2001 or 2003 or 2008, (preferably 1998!) in either the fall or early spring on a cool night with flashing orangish/yellowish lights and a crane model and your so called "macaroni" shoes while macaroni is cooking in a house and your laughing and rolling around the floor or ground as a pale skinned blue eyed white person with light brown hair regardless of your gender, and your saying random things that make no sense but still laughing hardcore! i used to imagine this happening on a cloudy october Thursday in 1998! i was 8 back then and im pretty sure i did something like that back then in october 1998! and in the 00's and now in the 2010's! it is just not as fun anymore! basically your saying/doing messed up things and laughing on a cloudy thursday and not caring at all and falling to the ground laughing rolling around but by friday you act like it never happened...........until next week hahahahaha!

so one person not acting like that talks to a person and he/she falls to the ground laughing and rolling around and saying things that make no sense even tho they are sober while it happened like the other person was sober to! on a cloudy thursday in october 1998! and yes they are both pale skinned with blue eyes and light brown hair white people of european descent! :)

this is mostly a White North American thing idk if actual White Europeans were exposed to this kind of culture but you never know! :)

so basically this is an autumn/early spring activity because your skin is paler than in the summer and it is cooler temperatures! the winter isn't really the right style to do this but our skin is the palest then to lol!

so imagine it is a cloudy thursday or wednesday night whether it is in 1998, 2001 or 2003 or 2008, (preferably 1998!) in either the fall or early spring on a cool night with flashing orangish/yellowish lights and a crane model and your so called "macaroni" shoes while macaroni is cooking in a house and your laughing and rolling around the floor or ground as a pale skinned blue eyed white person with light brown hair regardless of your gender, and your saying random things that make no sense but still laughing hardcore! i used to imagine this happening on a cloudy october Thursday in 1998! i was 8 back then and im pretty sure i did something like that back then in october 1998! and in the 00's and now in the 2010's! it is just not as fun anymore! basically your saying/doing messed up things and laughing on a cloudy thursday and not caring at all and falling to the ground laughing rolling around but by friday you act like it never happened...........until next week hahahahaha!

so one person not acting like that talks to a person and he/she falls to the ground laughing and rolling around and saying things that make no sense even tho they are sober while it happened like the other person was sober to! on a cloudy thursday in october 1998! and yes they are both pale skinned with blue eyes and light brown hair white people of european descent! :)

this is mostly a White North American thing idk if actual White Europeans were exposed to this kind of culture but you never know! :)

so basically this is an autumn/early spring activity because your skin is paler than in the summer and it is cooler temperatures! the winter isn't really the right style to do this but our skin is the palest then to lol!

see back in august of 2010 i had a sore throat for 8 or nine days and now at age 22 almost 23 i think i will die in the next two years (i am 22 and was 20 in august 2010) and for the last year and a half i have had what felt like gas stuck in my chest which i thought were heart palpitations or warning heart attacks, im still alive lol but have been drinking and getting drunk over 100 times since then! i have asperger's amd obsessive compulsive disorder! i have been drinking too much since two years ago and before! why am i still alive after two years of not being treated? does it sound like it's too late for it to be comcompletely treated? am i really dying or is this all in my head? im too afraid to go to the doctor because of being told im dying and to stop drinking, both things that will terrify me! let me explain whats going on, since october of 2010 i have noticed on the back half of my tongue is a white patch with red bumps and i have been coughing up clear snot and clearing my throat not so much as i used to (i assume that means im closer to dying) i used to think it was throat cancer and i have a few lumps in my jawline (noticed since about january 2011) but i have had gas in my chest that feels like pressure even after eating and it feels like my heart is beating faster i have checked my pulse and it was sometimes 84 bpm and over 90 bpm a few times lol even in the later half of 2010 i thought i was dying and 2011 but now in 2013 i think this is the real thing! IM NOT JOKING AT ALL of what i all said! this is all real since august 2010! i have been drinking for almost 5 years! :) i have asked this before and people said it wasn't cancer or a heart condition, but i think differently! i am a pessimist! i predict i will die before age 30! i was never very ambitious! or even after carrying furniture up the stairs i feel my heart beat through my chest for a little bit! i was never very active and never eat the best diet! do i sound like i have or am dying from a two year throat infection/heart condition? and again im HONEST of what i all said! NO LIES! am i really dying or what? but like i said i have still found myself drinking/getting blackout drunk many times through all this!

also recently people have said to me i have lost some weight which i have ( a few pounds i am a little thinner but always have been thin) someone said i might have endocardittis)

so when i finally do go to the doctor will life support be an option or get hospitalized? serious question so i expect serious, honest answers

also since october i have noticed my neck pulse beating! scary, scary stuff lol

sorry for all the information but my stools are loose sometimes with little foam like bubbles

read my other previous questions and you will find that im convinced im dying at age 22! since i was about 12 i have imagined myself dying young and every year since then i have imagined myself killing myself lol all through out my teen years, horrible years for sure, especially as someone with asperger's and ocd like myself we are ******* aliens to all of you neurotypicals, why the **** do we look like you! i was diagnosed at age 13 and i was definitely depressed at that age! like anyone else! actually all throughout my teen years i was more depressed than not and i was on ******* useless prozac! it made me think of suicide and made me cut/scratch myself as a teenager! i also abuse alcohol, prolly since i started drinking and i was on prozac when i started drinking lol people have said to me i have issues and demons and everyone has them! seriously tho since i was an adolescent i was never ambitious or really saw myself doing much with my life, i have NO friends or anything, which i don't care about and i want to remain a virgin/bachelor until i die! and im stuck living with my parents until i die unfortunately, i also consider myself a pessimist for the last decade! whats the point in getting better when this has affected me half of my life! i tried psychologists from age 13 to 18, ******* useless! i have told my parents many times im living with you until i die and there is a chance i will die before you lol even when i was 13! why was i even born when pessimism has me by throat for life? i don't get it! i only believe in light at the end of the tunnel temporarily not permanently! so basically i think i will never get my independence in my short life hence why i even question why i was born for years!

For doctors especially, do i have serious untreated health problems?

see back in august of 2010 i had a sore throat for 8 or nine days and now at age 22 almost 23 i think i will die in the next two years (i am 22 and was 20 in august 2010) and for the last year and a half i have had what felt like gas stuck in my chest which i thought were heart palpitations or warning heart attacks, im still alive lol but have been drinking and getting drunk over 100 times since then! i have asperger's amd obsessive compulsive disorder! i have been drinking too much since two years ago and before! why am i still alive after two years of not being treated? does it sound like it's too late for it to be comcompletelyreated? am i really dying or is this all in my head? im too afraid to go to the doctor because of being told im dying and to stop drinking, both things that will terrify me! let me explain whats going on, since october of 2010 i have noticed on the back half of my tongue is a white patch with red bumps and i have been coughing up clear snot and clearing my throat not so much as i used to (i assume that means im closer to dying) i used to think it was throat cancer and i have a few lumps in my jawline (noticed since about january 2011) but i have had gas in my chest that feels like pressure even after eating and it feels like my heart is beating faster i have checked my pulse and it was sometimes 84 bpm and over 90 bpm a few times lol even in the later half of 2010 i thought i was dying and 2011 but now in 2013 i think this is the real thing! IM NOT JOKING AT ALL of what i all said! this is all real since august 2010! i have been drinking for almost 5 years! :) i have asked this before and people said it wasn't cancer or a heart condition, but i think differently! i am a pessimist! i predict i will die before age 30! i was never very ambitious! or even after carrying furniture up the stairs i feel my heart beat through my chest for a little bit! i was never very active and never eat the best diet! do i sound like i have or am dying from a two year throat infection/heart condition? and again im HONEST of what i all said! NO LIES! am i really dying or what? but like i said i have still found myself drinking/getting blackout drunk many times through all this!

also recently people have said to me i have lost some weight which i have ( a few pounds i am a little thinner but always have been thin) someone said i might have endocardittis)

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so when i finally do go to the doctor will life support be an option or get hospitalized? serious question so i expect serious, honest answers

also since october i have noticed my neck pulse beating! scary, scary stuff lol

sorry for all the information but my stools are loose sometimes with little foam like bubbles

see back in august of 2010 i had a sore throat for 8 or nine days and now at age 22 almost 23 i think i will die in the next two years (i am 22 and was 20 in august 2010) and for the last year and a half i have had what felt like gas stuck in my chest which i thought were heart palpitations or warning heart attacks, im still alive lol but have been drinking and getting drunk over 100 times since then! i have asperger's amd obsessive compulsive disorder! i have been drinking too much since two years ago and before! why am i still alive after two years of not being treated? does it sound like it's too late for it to be comcompletelyreated? am i really dying or is this all in my head? im too afraid to go to the doctor because of being told im dying and to stop drinking, both things that will terrify me! let me explain whats going on, since october of 2010 i have noticed on the back half of my tongue is a white patch with red bumps and i have been coughing up clear snot and clearing my throat not so much as i used to (i assume that means im closer to dying) i used to think it was throat cancer and i have a few lumps in my jawline (noticed since about january 2011) but i have had gas in my chest that feels like pressure even after eating and it feels like my heart is beating faster i have checked my pulse and it was sometimes 84 bpm and over 90 bpm a few times lol even in the later half of 2010 i thought i was dying and 2011 but now in 2013 i think this is the real thing! IM NOT JOKING AT ALL of what i all said! this is all real since august 2010! i have been drinking for almost 5 years! :) i have asked this before and people said it wasn't cancer or a heart condition, but i think differently! i am a pessimist! i predict i will die before age 30! i was never very ambitious! or even after carrying furniture up the stairs i feel my heart beat through my chest for a little bit! i was never very active and never eat the best diet! do i sound like i have or am dying from a two year throat infection/heart condition? and again im HONEST of what i all said! NO LIES! am i really dying or what? but like i said i have still found myself drinking/getting blackout drunk many times through all this!

also recently people have said to me i have lost some weight which i have ( a few pounds i am a little thinner but always have been thin) someone said i might have endocardittis)

so imagine it is a cloudy thursday or wednesday night whether it is in 1998, 2001 or 2003 or 2008, (preferably 1998!) in either the fall or early spring on a cool night with flashing orangish/yellowish lights and a crane model and your so called "macaroni" shoes while macaroni is cooking in a house and your laughing and rolling around the floor or ground as a pale skinned blue eyed white person with light brown hair regardless of your gender, and your saying random things that make no sense but still laughing hardcore! i used to imagine this happening on a cloudy october Thursday in 1998! i was 8 back then and im pretty sure i did something like that back then in october 1998! and in the 00's and now in the 2010's! it is just not as fun anymore! basically your saying/doing messed up things and laughing on a cloudy thursday and not caring at all and falling to the ground laughing rolling around but by friday you act like it never happened...........until next week hahahahaha!

so imagine it is a cloudy thursday or wednesday night whether it is in 1998, 2001 or 2003 or 2008, (preferably 1998!) in either the fall or early spring on a cool night with flashing orangish/yellowish lights and a crane model and your so called "macaroni" shoes while macaroni is cooking in a house and your laughing and rolling around the floor or ground as a pale skinned blue eyed white person with light brown hair regardless of your gender, and your saying random things that make no sense but still laughing hardcore! i used to imagine this happening on a cloudy october Thursday in 1998! i was 8 back then and im pretty sure i did something like that back then in october 1998! and in the 00's and now in the 2010's! it is just not as fun anymore! basically your saying/doing messed up things and laughing on a cloudy thursday and not caring at all and falling to the ground laughing rolling around but by friday you act like it never happened...........until next week hahahahaha!

i just dont ******* care anymore my mom and dad can raise me until i die or they die, most likely i will die first! i am only 22 and a male but i think i will be dead before 30! when i was a teen i thought i would be dead before now but dead before 30 i think is more realistic! i also have asperger's and obsessive compulsive disorder, and i have NO plans for my future i DON'T ******* CARE, i will never be able to do what i truly want to do, even as a teen i had this **** life, i wont do much attitude so i think the best decision is to say **** it, im only legally an adult NEVER mature enough to be a real adult! and i also have off on as a teenager and now imagined myself dying and killing myself lol as young as 12 years old! i think me and lots of autistic people have no place on this earth so why the **** are we here?! i dont care about having friends or relationships, if i could i could live alone ccompletely so yes i would say i have mostly had depression for the last decade! im mostly pessimistic and rarley positive! i somehow tho have been working full time for two months, i have no idea how but i will **** that up to most llikely my mom and dad were excited about that i wasn't i just celebrate by getting drunk alone! :) yes i have a drinking problem but its the ONLY time i actually feel good about myself and i mostly drink alone! :)

i am a 22 year old male with asperger's syndrome and obsessive compulsive disorder that likes to be alone mostly, i have never had any real friends or dated, dont care for that stuff! anyways i keep telling my mom and dad i will live with them for the rest of our lives, i do not see any point in having any goals for myself, ones that have nothing to do with family, if i could i would live completely alone and go long periods of time without seeing my parents, i think every adult should do that! i could go more than a week without seeing or talking to them! i am not a big family person and see myself living a happy bachelor life until i die, no wife or kids! :) and i can live at home with my mom and dad for good! they say that they would both leave for a few months from time to time and let me look after the house! i also have been working full time for two months but to me that was nothing to get excited about! my mom and dad were more excited, i was serious when i told them, i did kind of celebrate alone by getting drunk alone, that's what i do i mostly drink and get drunk alone! :) i think between me and my parents we will never be overly close but i will have to see them and talk to them everyday for the next 4o years, mind you i see myself sometimes dying before them, i am a really pessimistic and rarely positive, i have been this way since i was 12 and all through my teens, in high school i never saw myself doing much with my life and it is the same these days! i think i am not capable of living independently or the way i like to, i dint like that but i think that is the way my life will end up! and from what you heard i am not hardly at all ambitious, i just see myself living my life for my mom and dad and NEVER for me, i think me and a few other people have no right to live our lives the way we want to which is sad oh well. i forgot to mention i was diagnosed at age 13 in 2003, so my teen years were not not the best lol either lol but how can i handle living with my parents when i can't stand seeing and talking to them everyday?

i am a 22 year old male with asperger's syndrome and obsessive compulsive disorder that likes to be alone mostly, i have never had any real friends or dated, dont care for that stuff! anyways i keep telling my mom and dad i will live with them for the rest of our lives, i do not see any point in having any goals for myself, ones that have nothing to do with family, if i could i would live completely alone and go long periods of time without seeing my parents, i think every adult should do that! i could go more than a week without seeing or talking to them! i am not a big family person and see myself living a happy bachelor life until i die, no wife or kids! :) and i can live at home with my mom and dad for good! they say that they would both leave for a few months from time to time and let me look after the house! i also have been working full time for two months but to me that was nothing to get excited about! my mom and dad were more excited, i was serious when i told them, i did kind of celebrate alone by getting drunk alone, that's what i do i mostly drink and get drunk alone! :) i think between me and my parents we will never be overly close but i will have to see them and talk to them everyday for the next 4o years, mind you i see myself sometimes dying before them, i am a really pessimistic and rarely positive, i have been this way since i was 12 and all through my teens, in high school i never saw myself doing much with my life and it is the same these days! i think i am not capable of living independently or the way i like to, i dint like that but i think that is the way my life will end up! and from what you heard i am not hardly at all ambitious, i just see myself living my life for my mom and dad and NEVER for me, i think me and a few other people have no right to live our lives the way we want to which is sad oh well.