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i bought a ninja and i really want to try it out with a good drink, anyone know of any? (don't bother suggesting margaritas, i want something different and fruity)

im really stuck on this cause i dont wanna wear something too formal or casual. oh and should i wear a hat?

my husband is going to take the CPAT in about a month and he really needs to find a good book that will help him re-learn algebra. he hasn't been to school in almost a decade and barely remembers a thing he learned in high school even though he got very good grades. iv been trying to help him but i cant explain why things are done the way they are, other than saying "because that's how you do it" - not to mention math was never my strong suit.

basically I'm looking for a book that offers an in-depth crash course in algebra along with practice tests and worksheets

i became pregnant in november and am due june 1st - but lately it seems everytime i turn around i find some kind of porn

at first i stumbled upon a website in our internet history when i was looking for a baby website that i had visited previously and i just thought it was no big deal and was just going to let it go - but i got curious and decided to look and see how long he's been looking and it turned out that he started around the time i conceived, and that really hurt me a lot to think that he wasnt attracted to me just because i got pregnant - and we had been trying for well over a year. yet i still didnt say anything and decided to block the website and if he tried to look for it again i would mention how it made me feel. sure enough a few days later i checked the history and he had been searching everywhere for it - so later that day i casually asked him what the website was and he told me its basically youtube but for porn, i then asked why it was on the computer and he said that "someone at work told him to look at something that was funny on it" (but you dont really go to porn sites like that if youre trying to see something funny) he then stated that i didnt have to worry about it anymore though because the site had been deleted, at which point i told him that i had blocked it because it hurt me so much that he seemed to start looking at it when i got pregnant and he got angry with me and said that he had been looking at it way before but im just nebbier now. so i told him id unblock it because i didnt really have a problem with him watching it, but i didnt want him to hide porn from me, i even said that i wouldnt mind watching it with him sometime or even trying out some new things - yet two days later i threw a document away on the computer on accident and when i went into the recycling bin to retrieve it there was a dirty movie tossed in there that had been converted to the format for his zune, so i just thought that he had realized that he had hurt me and threw it away but the next morning when i got up for work i saw his zune sitting on the nightstand and all i did was press play, and it turned out that the last thing he had been watching was that movie "dirty latina maids", again i opted to just have a good cry and pretend like i hadnt found it. so the next day i got curious as to what else he had hidden within the computer and i found downloads from both limewire and bittorrent but it seemed that the files had been deleted after he watched them, so again i didnt say anything. then the day before yesterday i was going through all of our burned movies with my husband sitting right next to me and i went to reach for a small cd case and he took it from me and set it aside saying that there was no reason for me to look in it because it just had backup disks for the computer - kinda suspicious huh - so i casually picked it up again and said that some of the other movies needed to be put in a case anyway and when i opened it there were backup disks for the computer, but there were also quite a few pornos - i couldnt just ignore it again and so i said "what, no dirty latina maids in here?" it took a moment for him to figure out that i had found that stuff in his zune and i told him how i came across it and he got mad at me for "invading his privacy" then tried to say that he thought if ou deleted it off the computer it automatically deletes it off the zune (which we all know is a pile of bull) and i made it clear that i was really upset that he was still trying to hide this stuff from me even after i had talked to him about it and he said that he thought it was weird to talk to me about that stuff - and its not like i banned it, all i said was dont hide it from me which i dont think is asking too much - so basically he was sitting there trying to make a joke out of something that i dont find in the least bit funny (which was obvious because i had started crying) and he decided it was imparitive for him to go and work out with a friend so i left it where it was - and last night i was looking for some of our holiday pictures on our external hard drive (because thats where we always have kept our pictures) and i saw an odd file just named "diss" and when i opened it i found all those movies that he had download from limewire and bittorrent that i thought he deleted. but he is just finding more hiding spots.

what should i do, i dont know how else to tell him how i feel - i tried being calm and just telling him, then i even tried letting him actually see my emotion (iv always been the type to cry only when nobody is around) but it doesnt seem to be working at all

(and dont even say its because im getting fat - im 7 months tomorrow and i am still in my size 0 pants and have such a small belly that most people dont even notice it. and he isnt worried about hurting the baby because whenever we do get intimate he isnt even remotely gentle)