Elle S

Last night I had a very vivid nightmare that I cannot shake. I used to be a cutter but ive been clean for over two years now and this is the first time in a very long time that i have had such an urge as strong as this one. I wrote my dream down right when i woke up, sorry if it's confusing, it was extremely difficult to try and explain. Please if you know anything about dreams, read this and tell me what it means. Thanks,

Elle

I woke from discomfort, my back was killing me, once again. I decided it would be a good idea to take a hot bath to put my muscles at ease, so that I may fall into another slumber. I rose out of my bed trying to be quite therefore not waking my partner. I went to my bathroom and started the water. From there I sat and waited and while I waited I felt as if the part of me that makes sense floated up to the ceiling and lingered there. You could call it an out of body experience. While my 'spirit' was lingering there at the ceiling fan, the body that it left turned the faucets to the bathtub off. My spirit seemed curious to know what the body was doing so It watched her closely. She turned and leaned down into the bag on the floor, she takes a razor out and sets it on the side of the tub. My spirit was now trying to see her face because the body's actions seemed unfamiliar, as if they were not the actions of my spirit. I now realize that it may be due to the fact that the body itself did not have a spirit and that it was acting on it's own. The stranger below undresses herself and steps into the water, which is only a few inches deep. My spirit then recognized that the original goal of the bath was no longer in place. The stranger removed the safety guard from the razor and tosses it into the trash can. She holds the razor with one hand and starts shaving her legs, running the other hand closely behind the razor which is an action that seemed all to familiar to the spirit. The stranger stops dead mid leg and picks the razor up from her skin, she turns the razor sideways and places it on the inner side of her knee and in a quick swoop she pulls the razor all the way up her thigh. The blood shows first at the knee and starts it's way down the path that the stranger just created for it. The stranger sits and stares at the blood draining and the bathtub slowly fills into a shade of red. All the while, my spirit, who knew that the stranger was enjoying her view, watches contently as if it was more of a relieving feeling rather than discomfort. The stranger then turned her face towards the ceiling fan and with darting eyes she stared into my spirit as if the stranger had known it was there, watching and waiting for her to do exactly what she did, the whole time. My spirit stared back at the stranger and had now recognized the strangers face, it was in fact me. Not, however, in any shape that I have ever seen myself in. My eyes were dark and caved in and the skin on my face looked as though it had started decomposing leaving rotted flesh and dried blood. It was then that I woke up, in my body that was healthy and with a spirit that was now damaged.

Last night I had a very vivid nightmare that I cannot shake. I used to be a cutter but ive been clean for over two years now and this is the first time in a very long time that i have had such an urge as strong as this one. I wrote my dream down right when i woke up, sorry if it's confusing, it was extremely difficult to try and explain. Please if you know anything about dreams, read this and tell me what it means. Thanks,

Elle

I woke from discomfort, my back was killing me, once again. I decided it would be a good idea to take a hot bath to put my muscles at ease, so that I may fall into another slumber. I rose out of my bed trying to be quite therefore not waking my partner. I went to my bathroom and started the water. From there I sat and waited and while I waited I felt as if the part of me that makes sense floated up to the ceiling and lingered there. You could call it an out of body experience. While my 'spirit' was lingering there at the ceiling fan, the body that it left turned the faucets to the bathtub off. My spirit seemed curious to know what the body was doing so It watched her closely. She turned and leaned down into the bag on the floor, she takes a razor out and sets it on the side of the tub. My spirit was now trying to see her face because the body's actions seemed unfamiliar, as if they were not the actions of my spirit. I now realize that it may be due to the fact that the body itself did not have a spirit and that it was acting on it's own. The stranger below undresses herself and steps into the water, which is only a few inches deep. My spirit then recognized that the original goal of the bath was no longer in place. The stranger removed the safety guard from the razor and tosses it into the trash can. She holds the razor with one hand and starts shaving her legs, running the other hand closely behind the razor which is an action that seemed all to familiar to the spirit. The stranger stops dead mid leg and picks the razor up from her skin, she turns the razor sideways and places it on the inner side of her knee and in a quick swoop she pulls the razor all the way up her thigh. The blood shows first at the knee and starts it's way down the path that the stranger just created for it. The stranger sits and stares at the blood draining and the bathtub slowly fills into a shade of red. All the while, my spirit, who knew that the stranger was enjoying her view, watches contently as if it was more of a relieving feeling rather than discomfort. The stranger then turned her face towards the ceiling fan and with darting eyes she stared into my spirit as if the stranger had known it was there, watching and waiting for her to do exactly what she did, the whole time. My spirit stared back at the stranger and had now recognized the strangers face, it was in fact me. Not, however, in any shape that I have ever seen myself in. My eyes were dark and caved in and the skin on my face looked as though it had started decomposing leaving rotted flesh and dried blood. It was then that I woke up, in my body that was healthy and with a spirit that was now damaged.

Okay so i use Frostwire with itunes, and yesterday when i tried to run a normal search for audio and everything that i tried downloading said it needed more sources even though alot of them had like 30 plus sources and i have downloaded music that had 2, so whats the dill pickle? I need new music and it wont let me! Ive tried pressing search for more sources and it still responds with zilch. Ive disconnected and shut the whole thing down and STILL it will not work for me. Has this happened to anyone else? Any suggestions?

So... three days ago i got really drunk with my friends and this guy called us and wanted to come chill with us. The rest of my friends knew him but it was my first time meeting him. By the time they got back from picking him up i was wasted, like completely gone, its a miracle i can remember him at all! So we hung out around the fire for like an hour or two then everyone accept this kid james and me went back to the car and got all the stuff together. So while we were sitting there he leaned over and kissed me, oh and he was also extremely drunk. Anyways we made out, ...touched..., and I ended up giving him a ******** at the end. But after I got done being a hoe...we laid on a blanket, snuggled, and watched the stars for an hour. We talked and he said he would never forget this night with me. I had to go home so we got a ride from our friend and he kissed me goodnight and I've been thinking about how much i like him ever since. I feel really bad that i did all that before we talked because im seriously crushing on him now. So what should I do?

Hey, so I get to re-do my bedroom and I cant put it all together. I am really into french Couture, pink and black would be my choices, but not like emo pink and black but like baby pink and lacy black. I really want it to have alot of lace throughout the whole thing. I'm going for sexy chic. If you can help me, please do! Pictures would be fabulous!

im going on a vacation and im gonna be swimming and i want to look good. I leave in 9 days. I thought if i exercise twice a day and eat healthy until i leave i should be able to wear something decent and cute... like a two piece swim suit! So my question is how much weight can i loose in that amount of time? and if you have any other little tips for my 9 day "diet" that would be amazing!

i just got that haircut and im not sure about it, what do you think?

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I met a traveler from an antique land

he was a mysterious man who i would soon refer to as 'keeper.'

he tought me all there was to learn

for the role that i shall play in this life.

you see,

i had been running,

running from my life,

running to find an escape.

and i did.

i found a door

not an ordinary door

but a door to greatness.

the only problem was,

it was locked.

i could not get through,

that was until i met this traveling man.

this man held the key.

he told me that he would unlock this door

because i was ready to see what lye behind it.

i spent many happy years behind this door,

until i had an urge,

this urge was familiar,

i wanted more.

i went to my keeper and told him

i was ready for my next journey.

as i passed through several more doors

my happiness turned to boredom

i told my keeper this

he said to me,

"then my time is up.

i will take you through one final door

but i will not come with you."

It was my time to be someone elses keeper.

his last door had come

he showed me all there was to see

he tought me all there was for me to learn,

and now its my turn.

I met a traveler from an antique land

he was a mysterious man who i would soon refer to as 'keeper.'

he tought me all there was to learn

for the role that i shall play in this life.

you see,

i had been running,

running from my life,

running to find an escape.

and i did.

i found a door

not an ordinary door

but a door to greatness.

the only problem was,

it was locked.

i could not get through,

that was until i met this traveling man.

this man held the key.

he told me that he would unlock this door

because i was ready to see what lye behind it.

i spent many happy years behind this door,

until i had an urge,

this urge was familiar,

i wanted more.

i went to my keeper and told him

i was ready for my next journey.

as i passed through several more doors

my happiness turned to boredom

i told my keeper this

he said to me,

"then my time is up.

i will take you through one final door

but i will not come with you."

It was my time to be someone elses keeper.

his last door had come

he showed me all there was to see

he tought me all there was for me to learn,

and now its my turn.

when i was a child i started having this reoccurring nightmare. i had it for several nights in a row and then it went away, last night i had it again. I want to know what it means. my dream is im waking up in the house that i grew up in as a very young child and its pitch black i climb out of bed and nobody is awake i go to the hallway, this hallway leads to my parents bedroom one straight shot no run off hallways its one long straight hallway. i start walking down until i reach the door i suddenly feel frightened but i still reach out to open my parents door but before my hand reaches the door knob it starts turning itself. the door starts to open and someone is standing there (don't know who it was) i get so scared that i fall backwards (like on my back) but the floor never comes, i just keep falling into the darkness and then i wake up. what does this mean why am i having it again?

when i was a child i started having this reoccurring nightmare. i had it for several nights in a row and then it went away, last night i had it again. I want to know what it means. my dream is im waking up in the house that i grew up in as a very young child and its pitch black i climb out of bed and nobody is awake i go to the hallway, this hallway leads to my parents bedroom one straight shot no run off hallways its one long straight hallway. i start walking down until i reach the door i suddenly feel frightened but i still reach out to open my parents door but before my hand reaches the door knob it starts turning itself. the door starts to open and someone is standing there (don't know who it was) i get so scared that i fall backwards (like on my back) but the floor never comes, i just keep falling into the darkness and then i wake up. what does this mean why am i having it again?

Im the one on the right?

1-10? Any tips?

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Is there some kind of program that my family can get on to help with christmas this year?

I'm looking for a really funny story please nothing about dating, farting, or your granny! The funniest story gets 10 points. Remember this has to be from high school.

Whats the funniest thing that's ever happened to you in High School? Please write it in story form so we can all go along and understand it. Funniest story gets best answer!!!

Good Luck,

Thanks, Elle S.

Whats the funniest thing that's ever happened to you in High School? Please write it in story form so we can all go along and understand it.

Funniest story gets best answer!!!

Good Luck,

Thanks, Elle S.

I have a lump under my right arm, its not in the center of the pit its more to the front towards my breast. ive had it for about a year and i never really paid any attention to it but now its tender to the touch and its much bigger than the other arm. I looked it up online and i mostly got swollen/infected lymph nodes or breast cancer. If you have any idea what it might be please let me know. Also I'm very nervous to go to the doctor just because I'm worried about them sticking a giant needle in it or something so if you have any idea what it is could you maybe tell me what they do to treat it just so i can know what I'm getting myself into when i see the doctor!

Im planning a suprise birthday party for my best friend shes turning 15 and we're having a lights out party which is basically NO LIGHTS only glow sticks and black lights! so im just hoping i could find something else to do but everything has to be glow in the dark so heres what i have now:

Games

Twister-paint the circles with glow in the dark paint and the spinner too!

Scavenger hunt-Paint letters on several different objects around the yard which spell a clue or secret word that the teams have to find the letters for and unscramble.

Scavenger hunt-Yes i know there are two!-Paint different denominations of coins and have teams collect a specified amount of money. This will add an extra dimension, since the winner won't necessarily be the team that finds the most coins but the team that finds a total of $5.00 first (or whatever amount you choose).

bob for balls!- paint balls whatever the size with glow in the dark paint stick them in a bucket and BOB!

tugawar- paint a rope with glow in the dark paint get a kiddie inflatable pool and fill it with glow sticks then divide the party into 2 and the first team to fall into the glow sticks looses.

have someone painting faces with glow in the dark paint

Thats what i have so far but whatelse can i do there?

I will be 16 in October, i have a couple of close friends, i get along with my family, im a good student, and i was okay until a few weeks after summer started i just feel like there is a peice of my life that is missing.