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Something horrible happened to me in October, involving a man doing something I didn't want him to and me doing something bad to this guy... I was only fifteen at the time, but I was a much different person and I'm constantly hearing about how I've changed now. I used to be a lot better in appearance, I was smarter, I was a LOT happier, I had a lot of potential and I was a whole lot nicer and just normal in general. I rarely sleep and when I do I get these horrible flashbacks of it, I wanted to be a different person so I changed a lot about my appearance and the way I dress and stuff, I became very depressed and I don't FEEL anything; I no longer feel happiness or sadness or anything, I just feel empty. Sometimes I get angry I guess, like really angry. One second I'll be there and then these flashbacks will reappear for an instant and the only way I can react is by becoming angry so I break or smash things or I become abusive or I hurt other people. I've isolated myself from everyone - my old friends, my entire family. I've gone from getting consistent A*s at school to failing everything and I'm just under so much pressure because of it. I feel like everything is falling apart and it's because I just don't have the energy to do anything. I don't enjoy anything anymore, I feel bored and so I take drugs a lot; and I always have a bad trip because of this experience, but it makes me feel something. I never feel fear and it's made me reckless, I keep doing stupid things. All I can think about is suicide, this thing that happened makes me SICK, I can't tell anyone because it disgusts me so much and I feel ashamed. I don't really remember it properly either. I know the date, but not exactly where I was or why I was there or anything like that, I just get flashbacks of what happened and it really is eating me from the inside. It literally makes me sick. How can I possibly tell anyone?? It's my own fault in the end... The closest I get to enjoyment is being with my friends and I won't even be allowed to leave the house if my parents ever found out. They really can't stand me anymore - they're convinced I'm constantly on drugs and all my friends are losers and druggies. I physically can't get the words out. What do I do?

I've been having this dream since I was about four and it scares me so much! It's so significant in my life though, like it's not an actual dream but a FEELING or something.

Basically, I'm high up looking down on an empty room in which there is nothing but giant chess board patterns - they're on the walls, the floor and the ceiling. In the middle of the room I can see myself sitting on a chair looking up at myself. I don't feel like i'm in my own body - I can't control myself or anything and I can't even feel my own body, I just feel like I have pins and needles all over my body and I can hear this eery buzzing noise. In terms of emotions I feel panicked because I can't move, I'm paranoid and feel like there's something watching me from above and there's just this horrible sense of loneliness and deja vu. There's no windows or doors or anything and it's just like I'm trapped.

The weirdest things is that I don't always get this feeling in dreams. Like I can be sitting in silence in my room or in a lesson and I'll zone out and it'll all come back. I'm a fan of psychedelic drugs but I've had trips where I've felt like this. Like when I was on LSD, I could see these walls surrounding me even though I was outdoors and I thought I was completely alone and being watched although I was with loads of people and I just had that horrible feeling of deja vu and the buzzing/pins and needles thing. It's so weird. I was walking through a field on NBOME and again I felt like I was watching myself walk and I could see walls surrounding me and it was like a spinning room and I couldn't control where I was walking or anything and I just felt confined and helpless despite being outdoors in a huge field. It's so odd! Why do I get this?

"P, Q and T are points on the circumference of a circle, centre O. the line ATB is the tangent at T to the circle.

PQ = TQ

Angle ATP = 58 degrees

calculate the size of angle OTQ

Give a reason for each stage of your working"

I'm so lost! I'm terrible at maths and I have no idea what to do... Please explain it to me, there's like a whole booklet on this that needs to be done by tomorrow :(

I've overdosed on about 20 paracetomol, 30 caffeine pills and I've smoked a lot of pure weed since Saturday. I was on a bad comedown, and I regret it a bit now and I'm in a lot of pain. I know it's not enough to kill myself but im worried about what its done to my liver... I don't want to go to hospital though. I don't want to tell anyone... If I just drink water can I clear my body out and just not have to go to the hospital? Even when I got home today, the first thing my dad was start questioning me about why my skin was so discoloured and why my veins were showing up and said it's like Im having liver problems... I'm worried now. I only had a little bit of weed today but it made me really sick and my whole body felt paralysed and I felt empty as hell... Do I need to go to hospital or something?

On Saturday, I smoked a lot of cannabis and it really amplified my depression (not diagnosed or anything) as drugs seem to be doing to me recently. I took 30 caffeine pills to try and cheer myself up and then the comedown off them was horrendous and I just wanted to die - normally, although I think about killing myself a lot - I'll think of something that'll make me want to live. So I overdosed on paracetemol - I've only taken about twenty since sunday but I'm now worrying about my liver. My stomach is killing me and feels like it's full of acid, I keep shivering and going crazily dizzy, whenever I smoke I get really bad niccy rushes and I smoked the tiniest amount of weed earlier and it made my stomach hurt so much and I went through a few minutes where I couldn't even move and I was just so depressed, never felt so empty in my life. I don't really want to die... I'd rather just not exist so nobody could get hurt. But I feel like I need to stay here to keep the people I love happy - my boyfriend used to be suicidal and he worries about me all the time although I haven't told him how bad I am, my best friend always goes through really depressed phases and has self-harmed and attempted to kill herself in the past and I love my dad too much and I'm all he has. It's been a pretty long time since I did and no doubt it's too late to just throw them up and the "chain reaction" is probably already taking place. When I got home, my dad was talking about how discoloured I look and how my veins were showing loads and I look like I don't have enough oxygen and he said "you look like youre having liver problems..." which has worried me. I find it impossible to tell people because I'm so scared of hurting them... Is it too late to save my life? Would I be able to wait to go to hospital until Friday? How can I try and keep myself okay until then? Do I really need to go to hospital or will I be okay considering the small dosage?

I took 20 paracetemols which I don't think is enough to kill me but definitely damage my liver and eventually kill me I guess? How long will that take? I'm considering going to the hospital tomorrow but I took them yesterday and I am in a LOT of pain now and I'm so sleepy. How long do you think I could go like this? I also have a lot of cannabis and a LOT of caffeine in my system as I took 30 caffeine pills on sunday...

I was on a really bad comedown from weed and it messed with my depression and I overdosed. I took 30 caffeine pills and 20+ painkillers, two different types and I feel sick and dizzy and lightheaded and tired and my hands and feet keep going numb and I'm really drowsy. I've been feeling suicidal for quite a long time now but I couldn't do it because of my dad and my boyfriend and I hate the idea of doing that to my friends. I also hate the idea of giving up so easily... I really regret doing it now but I can't throw up and I'm trying to keep myself hydrated but I keep getting fevers and I'm shaking a lot... I can't go to the hospital. Like I just honestly cannot tell anyone what I've done, I physically can't, I've tried but I can't tell people but I'm starting to worry... What do I do?? Could I go to the hospital on my own and just not give any names or anything?? I'm only sixteen...

So yesterday I was on a really bad comedown from weed and caffeine pills and decided to overdose - suicide's been on my mind for ages, the only thing stopping me was my dad, my boyfriend and how it would impact my friends. Anyways, I felt so low that none of this mattered to me. I've taken 20 painkillers which I don't think is enough to kill me... Towards the end of today it started to affect me really badly and im in a lot of pain and im very dizzy etc... I'm really regretting it. I seriously can't go to the hospital because my parents would find out and all hell would break loose and I'd probably have to move in with my mum and never leave the house again and to be honest I'd rather die anyway because I HATE the woman and my friends were the only thing keeping my happy. So I can't go to the hospital. I'm not really sure what I'm supposed to do but I'm worried for my livers to tell you the truth. Would throwing up help? I've tried drinking salt water and gagging myself but nothing worked, couldn't get anything up. What do I do??

I have put my ipad in recovery mode and tried restoring it through iTunes (I've followed all the instructions on the Apple website)... but it's saying I'm unable to restore it because I need to enter a password lock - which I can't do because it's fricking disabled. I've never synced it before... What am I supposed to do?? I need to use my iPad, I don't care what I lose, I just need it back.

So I had a bad trip on acid like a month ago (LSD tabs), and ever since, it's like it's repeating on me. Every now and then someone will be talking to me and then all of a sudden I hear them saying something they're not, and I become crazy paranoid and think everybody's talking about me. I'll see smoke where it isn't and start panicking... I keep getting these night terrors (which I used to get anyway). A few minutes ago I was sitting on my laptop and all of a sudden I felt like something came out of the screen and almost hit me in the face and it made me full on flinch and have a panic attack. I'm having trouble telling what's real and what isn't, and I keep zoning out and forgetting things - like whole days etc. I already have a lot of people saying bad things about me, I have a bad reputation at my school and a lot of haters and I have loads of rumours made about me and people write things about me on toilet cubicles and stuff so it's just making me feel even worse...

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I literally want a simple, small tribal tattoo and my hip and I was wondering how much it should cost round about (UK)? If not, how much would it cost just for some writing or something?

So I used to self harm on my thighs - it was the only place I could do it without feeling like I was begging for attention and it's easy to hide... But I now have a boyfriend. We've been together for age and I know he's getting frustrated that I haven't had sex with him yet but I just feel really insecure about it. He knows I used to self harm but he still thinks it's pretty stupid - and let's be honest, it is. I just don't think he realises quite how badly I self harmed, like my right thigh is pretty much savaged...I've used different creams and stuff on it but nothing relaly helps. What do I do?

So when I first met him, I wasn't THAT interested. He was hot and he was funny and he was a bit of a player. We got pretty close, and then all of a sudden he broke it off because he had some personal stuff to take care of - this is round about when I realised I was starting to really like him. Trying to move on, I went on a couple dates with a friend of his who'd liked me for a long time but I realised I really wasn't over him and it was mean of me to use another guy so I broke it off, and the guy I like reappeared and we started to get close again. Over time, he earned my trust and I told him more about myself than I'd ever told anybody before - like I honestly just poured my heart out to him and he started to do the same. I became really clingy, constantly wanting to see him and telling him I love him and messaging him all night and I honestly just felt like I really, really loved him. Being with him just made me happy and it made all the bad **** disappear. And then it was like I gave up a bit... I couldn't be bothered to make the effort, I wouldn't always reply to him, I don't even say "I love you" back to him, I was flirting with other guys although I felt really guilty and things like that, we just became distant. And then all of a sudden it's like he decided I was really special to him and he won't stop telling me he loves me and he gets protective over me and he always wants to be with me and he can't go half a day without talking to me and he looks at me like I'm beautiful or something really important to him and it scares me now, I don't like feeling like someone cares about me. I feel like I'm being tied down - before I met him I could vanish into thin air and nobody would notice or care but if I disappeared I think it would kill him. I told him I'm not good for him because I'll end up hurting him over and over again but he doesn't care. I like him too much to just end it completely and he is honestly the most important person in my life and I care about him a lot but I'm just scared of hurting him. I don't want to be tied down. What do I do?

i connected to iTunes and tried to restore it but it says it can't restore it unless I type in my password which I can't because it's disabled... im desperate! what do I do now??

So I go through these phases basically. There's normal me; I'm sad, sometimes im happy, I'm nice, I'm caring, I'm smart, I'm careful, I'm well behaved, I keep to myself, I'm shy, I have a really low self esteem... Then there's another side of me; I'm angry, I'm selfish, I'm sadistic, I'm impulsive, dangerous, an adrenaline junkie, I'm confident, people find me "sexy", I'm ignorant, detached and lazy and so on... It causes problems for me because I can't really control what I do when I go through this phase - and it usually ends up with me upsetting someone. It used to be controllable but in December it kind of took over me; I was taking several different drugs a day, I was drinking nothing but alcohol, I isolated myself from my family and friends entirely and met up with newer people and I - in a way - cheated on my boyfriend I guess? Which is one of the worst things a peron can do, in my opinion and so I'm really upset about it. I don't remember a whole lot of it but I was smoking weed before my exams and I ended up failing everything. Even on Christmas, I refused to go and see my family and I stayed on my own all day and I took acid. I have other symptoms like depression, mood swings, suicidal tendencies, really bad insomnia, night terrors, I have panic attacks and anxiety, I have annoying compulsions and I hallucinate occasionally (these psychotic episodes are similar to when I've had bad trips on LSD). I have problems remembering things a lot which means I end up losing thing, and I have a weird concept of time - I'll literally get home from school, sit on my iPad for an hour, have a shower, eat some food and then the next thing I know it's three in the morning or something. When I go through this weird phase thing, I do a lot of things I'd never imagine doing any other time and I've physically hurt people in the past, not to mentioned emotionally. I've stolen off people, I lie to everybody and I do a lot of stupid, reckless things but it's not really ME who's doing it.

I was punched in the chin yesterday in a game of netball (not deliberately...I think). Straight away, it felt like the bit of my jaw beneath my ear clicked and it's been so painful since! Every time I talk or eat it cracks and it's really painful. I can't open my mouth wide... I'm a singer as well, and I have a performance on Monday but I seriously can't do it! It feels a little swollen and warm beneath my ear but I don't think it's bruised or anything. My teeth feel slightly misaligned but when I try to straighten it out, it just clicks again and oh my god, it hurts so much - and I have a REALLY high pain threshold, and I can say that as someone who's already broken three other bones. Is it broken?? Should I go to the local minor injuries unit, wait it out and see if it gets any better or just get an appointment with the doctor in a few weeks? I can't do anything straight away because I'm home alone and the MIU is pretty far...

I'm nearly seventeen, and instead of starting college this year, I was offered a job at a magazine company - which was brilliant, it's great pay and the company is fantastic. The CEO hired me after seeing some film journalism I did on a blog. But this guy seems like a proper creep, it's like when he's talking he ALWAYS has to touch my shoulder or my knee or my thigh. He's in his forties, and I'm sixteen so it creeps me out a bit. Like I'll be typing something up and he'll come and stroke my hair and tell me I'm doing a great job. His secretary is SO rude and jealous and when we bumped into each other in the tea room, she accused me of sleeping with him to get the job. I was really pissed off! But I guess that means she's noticed how he acts with me. He keeps offering me lifts home, and he said he's going to take me for a drink when I finish the article I'm writing - which isn't even legal where I live as I'm only sixteen. I don't want to be really rude and mention to him how uncomfortable he makes me feel, and I guess it's actually a pretty serious accusation. What should I do?

I accepted a lift of him before because of the rain and when he pulled up outside me house he was rubbing my thigh. I'm not sure if I'm being paranoid as well but I feel like he just sits there staring at my breasts or my bum! He never makes he eye contact with me or anything,

I went to Spain at the beginning of June weighing just over ten stone. Ever since though, I've been feeling quite ill: I'm lethargic, I've been feeling a little nauseous, I can't concentrate, im dizzy, light headed and my head aches like crazy, I feel bloated and I just have not stopped binge eating. I keep waking up with really bad night sweats and it's giving me rashes. I've not done any more exercise than usual, nor have I been eating any less but every body's been pointing out how much weight I've lost - I thought they were just being nice, because I couldn't tell myself and I've obviously been feeling really bloated. But I weighed myself today and I'm only 8 and a half stone. I'm five foot two and I'm fifteen years old, and I'm not really sure what's going on. I've also been feeling quite achy, particularly on the right hand side of my torso which hurts particularly when I'm lifting heavy things. Why might I be feeling like this? Are they connected?

I've been volunteering at a TV company since I was fifteen. I've always been dead set on working in media, and at the time I was keen to ficus on television. I've since decided that I want to be a journalis, and I'd already found the courses I'd like to take at college. Anyway,so I've just finished school and my results day is next month and I'm predicted all As and A*s. in my holidays, I always work 9-5: my job is to write up databases, update the blog, write film and music reviews on the blog, organise meeting and interviews for him, GO to meeting and interviews with him etc... It's quite a lot of responsibility, but I'm pretty good at it. I'm taking the week off this week because im visiting my sister, but I had to go for a meeting with him on Tuesday. He's asked me to start working full time doing the same thing I've been doing anyway. He didn't discuss the financial side of it, but the starting salary at this company is around £30,000 and considering as I'm not yet seventeen, that really sounds pretty awesome. But the problem is, although i enjoy working there and I'm good at it and it's a really sound opportunity, I'd still love to finish my education: I feel too young to be tied down to a job, and if ever I do decide on a career change, it'll be difficult without proper qualifications. I've always jut had this plan: go to school, go to college, go to university, take a gap year and go traveling, come back, graduate, settle into a job. I don't think I'll be able to volunteer at the TV company if I'm studying for college either. I don't really have a lot of time to make a decision. What would you do if you were in my position??