jordan

im 20 and i live with my mom and bro and we live kinda out of the city about 40miles and even the public bus doesnt come this far out i have one job in the city that was just on the weekends but i just got promoted to during the week as well as weekends but i have no car so my mom was taking me to work on the weekends. i really have been thinking about moving into the city with my gpa and picking up a second job and after i get a second job move into my own studio apartment because where i live without a car it makes me feel stuck to wait on my mom for everything and all of my friends live in the city. i make about 400 a month at my first job and there are some studio apartments in my city that are about 385 a month including utilities this is because theyre kind of in a student artsy area in my city its a nice area too. my first job i work M(11-2),TH(11-2),F(11-2),Sat(9-3)and Sun(11-3) if i got a second job that i work in just evening hours maybe a few days a week i think i could afford to live on my own without feeling like all i do is work lol and still take a few classes so i keep up school as well my mom says im not ready to live alone and that if i move out now i will not go to school because i willl be spending alll of my time working 3 and 4 jobs too try and keep a place and that i need to have a 9-5 job to try and move out. that i need to stay with her work hours she can take me to work go to school( which she would end up having to take me to because i have no car) and save my money. but living here i hardly seee freiends im dependent on her she treats me like a child i have a curfew and my bf even lives in the city and there are no city busses to take me anywhere around where we live...what do you guys think???

When i was in highschool i had ADD and i didnt know until it was too late and i had failed all my classes so i took my GED test when i was 17 and passed and got in college that same year after two semesters of school me and my fam. were supposed to move to colorado so i stopped classes in order to move but we didnt move and i never went back to school its been about 3 years and i haven't been in school and i have been trying hard to get a job but noone will hire me. i have no car so i spend most of my week days at home being unproductive while my younger brother is at school and my mom is at work and on the weekends i go out with my boyfriend alot to get away from being stuck at home. ive been dealing with feelings of depression for the last year because i dont have much going on and i haven been able to land a job. These feelings havent been prodominenet tho because i spend alot of my time laughing and smiling even tho im completely unhappy. however lately i have been seeing things weirdly i have these episodes where ..like if im riding in a car all the passing trees and scenerary seem like a painting to me and not like detailed images the way they used to and when i close my eyes sometimes i see desings in my eyelids that irk me and make my skin crawl and i have to open my eyes. and if im in a room everything in the room seems just weird every pillow and shoe and bottle just seems to pop out at me like everything in the room has been outlined and it makes my skin crawl and makes me want to cut everything up with scissors does anyone know what this could be becuase i really need to know whenever i have these episodes i ball in tears because ive never felt this way before and im so afraid im losing my mind and i dont want to lose my mind i have to much aspiration for my future that i want to live sanely do you think im just over thinking things or does this sound like any type of mental illness you may have heard of i just need something because im so lost and afraid....

me and my boyfirend have been dating for about four years and im 20 and hes about to turn 21 we both go to community college so were both still living at home with our parents...my boyfriend is amazing and he treats me really well and i call him my bestfriend more than my bf because we are just that close the only problem im having right now with him is im a really spiritual and passionate type of person who enjoys aromatherapy and moody colors and things and i enjoy being intimate and sexy. however his mom (shes really nice) but! she always talks in this completely aboxious baby voice and shes like in her late 50's she even talks to him in that voice it drives me crazy and what drives me even crazier is that he has picked it up from her and now 50% of his speech is in this voice especially when he is sleepy its not that hes saying stuff like "i wuv you" but he says i love you and ALOT of other stuff in that same type of voice like his talking to a infant it turns me off so much and sometimes he says im sowwy. i feel like he loves me like a real man and it makes me think about marrying him someday but when he does that voice my skin crawls i dont want my husband to talk to my like a baby i want him to speak like a grown man with bass haha when he uses his normal voice its really hot to me and i feel like were a mature couple. i hope that when he moves out and gets away from his mom itll wear off but im afraid it won't what should i do ??? i don't want to hurt his feelings.

if i am a thin girl and i have been since i was a little girl do i have to eat portion sizes is there any other reason people eat portion sizes other than to not eat lot's of calories and gain weight. will it affect any other part of my health if i eat large portions and im not gaining weight.

my boyfriend sent sexy pics to another girl when we were in a fight because he said he felt sad and wanted someone to make him feel better ...and he never told me i found out on my own. weve been dating for five years and as far as i know this is the first time he has done anything like this. is this worth breaking up over i feel hurt because he didn't tell me but he has apologized over and over.

Iv'e been making plans with my "boyfriend" ( i used quotes because were kinda at this point where we say were just friends but were basically married)..anywho weve had plans to have a date four a few days now we were gonna hangout a while then go get pizza and then go see a movie and i told him a couple of days ago that he should come over early so we can have a while to hangout and go eat before our movie and he said yea ok...but today when i textd him and said what time are you coming over he said he had to get his dog from the groomers at four so after he did that he'd be over. he gets out of class at two so i thought he'd be over after then since we had planned to hangout early ..and its been a whole week since we have hung-out and he hasn't even made a big deal about that like he usually would. i think he could arrange his plans so that he could make time to do the things he said he would with me or he could've at least told me yesterday that he had to get his dog around that time so i would know...what do you think??

I'm 19 and i have a guy best friend that ive know for a loong time who used to be my boyfriend for a about a year but we broke up back in December. we broke up because hes an only child and i think he can be pretty bratty. so i decided i rather be friends with him. he's always had something sarcastic and smart mouthed to say since i've really gotten to know him which is why i didn't want to be his GF. like the other day he came over and we were hanging out and i was asking him what he wanted to do and i said i have movies and he said ok i said we have twilight eclipse which i know you dont want to watch and we have a french movie but you have to read the subtitles but its a really great movie and he is just like i don't feel like reading i'm too lazy. so i said well me and the family were gonna go for a walk wanna go? and he was like uhhhh...i'm hungry how bout you just go with them and call me when your done and i'll come back. but he actually ended up going anyways (because i got mad). and then later that night my mom asked me to get him a stool to put his plate on and he had already been driving me insane so i mumbled i'm not getting him anything and he walked up to me and got all in my face and was like what did you say( i guess he was trying to be playful) but that mad my mom really upset because she demands respect for me from any guy friends or not and he got really upset and said we were just too different because she got mad at him for doing this....what do you think about him?

what is a good costume idea for a very small white toy poodle??

I have a crush on a guy and he knows we've been texting and talked in person but we haven't hung out yet and i think he likes me back...which is great but i have this crazy anxious feeling in my gut! and it kind of hurts and i can't stop thinking about him and it is driving me crazy i can't even concentrate on anything because i keep checking my phone i wish i could like him without this feeling . Is this feeling normal or am i crazy ? what can i do to feel sane again??

What can i do with my time?

right now i am 19 im not in school again till summer i have been trying to find a job but i just can't get hired anywhere i apply. I used to love having so much free time but now im am starting to go a lil bit insane i feel like the movie disturbia lol I just need to know if anyne can give me any productive ideas...i mean other than painting my nails and reading a book or volunteering i have no way to get there and going out is very optional since i don't have a job.

What celebrity or celebrity would you love to just pin and makeout with hahaha. This question is just for fun.

My answer/s would be

#1 Shia Labeouf he looks like such a GREAT kisser in disturbia and he is SMOKING HOT! :p

#2 Taylor Lautner that was a pretty good kiss in eclipse for Kristen Stewart, lucky girl! lol

#3 Johny Depp = DREAM MAN lol

ok i am seventeen almost eighteen i want to throw a really great halloween party i dont want my guest to be standing around bored and wondering what to do after they eat and enjoy a few songs lets face it teens get bored very quickly and when they do thats when trouble and negative attitudes start . so i was wondering if anyone my age or even a lil older had any ideas on stuff that my guest and i can to to remain entertained and make this party something they will remember but also something they wont find corny or "whack"

i need help.. i dont know what's wrong with me . im only seventeen.and every day when i wake up i feel grumpy and i have no enthusiasm to go anywhere i dont wana call my friends on the phone because im not excited too talk to them. i used to look at my lil brother and get this smile on my face because i thought he was soo sweet and cute and now when he talks to me i just want to shut him up and make him go away and i feel soo guilty. i am taking my ged soon and i should feel excited that im gona get this done but i dont . and im not excited about my future because i dont know where im going and i dont have any excitement about life. i hardly laugh anymore and im constantly trying to find ways to make myself happy im never just genuinely happy and i dont think i was depressed but now im starting to feel depressed because my lack of joy and care i can see is starting too ush everyone away from me.. my family and my friends and like strangers that i meet.. it just seems like noone wants to be around me or talk to me and when they try to i just wanna crawl under a blanket and hide....and i dont know what to do everyday it just gets worse....:::((((