Andy

So i been dating my gf for 11 months and i love her like ill do anything for her.we are both sophomores and this girl is a freshman and i have a class with the girl and shes pretty and she looks nice and she has a fat *** too,i just know her name thats it idk anything about her but i feel like im starting to have a crush on this girl idk why when i dont even know her at all, then i also feel like if she came up to me and started to kiss me i feel like ill let her a little bit but i will push her to not in the end and i will feel guitly if i let her kiss me or do watever,i dont want to lose my gf she didnt do anything to me, i feel guitly that im here liking another girl while im still loving her,so wat does this mean? Am i a bad bf? Dont love my gf for real? Wat should i do?

So my gf had a quince and she had dancers then she took a picture with one of her dancers but hes gay. But my friends didnt know that my friend has her on instagram and he saw the pic and i said oh hes gay but didnt believe me cuz a lot of girls say guys are gay but turn out to not be gay,and my gf has pictures of her dancers on instagram, so told her about it and i told her to stop posting pictures of her dancers all the time cuz i dont want ppl talking **** about anything i asked her nice to stop and she said no because shes not gonna do something for my friends when its not that was for anyone and she thinks i listened to them,how did i listen to them when i already know hes gay and i seen the pic way before and shes like "ppl shouldnt be in my business in the first place so who cares if they hate"she blocked me from instagram and everyone ik and shes like imma post more **** just to piss u off and everyone else. I told her why she block me and shes said cuz i pissed her off and now shes mad at me for no goddam reason.she also said i dont defend her and let ppl talk **** about her,when i didnt and i do defend her so idk wat shes talking about,i tried calling and texting but she will act like dont care at all,everytime she leaves i call her all the time to fix the fight,i keep on chasing her and chasing her,then she says hurtful **** to me too when shes mad everytime,she cant be wrong for anything,so wat should i do or say cuz she pissed me off for being mad for nothing

my gf had a dream where i smacked a teachers *** to be funny,and i told her about it and she broke up with me and went to go get pizza and my friends followed her and they tried to cheer her up and then she told me she was flirting with one of my friends but idk how she says she doesnt remember but i dont believe it.she remembers she flirted but doesnt remember who.well anyways i got mad cuz why would she flirt with someone if she doesnt think they are cute,their faces dont just change in dreams and we got into an argument and idk if its supposed to mean something or if she really thinks they are cute,i think ik which one it is cuz a few months ago she said that she used to think that my friend brandon was cute but now hes decent hes not ugly or cute hes decent and tbh i kinda dont like him not because of this but because of i found out he was doing stuff behind my back,but idc he can do watever he wants,and who wants their gf to think that a guy they dont like is cute and im really jealous guy. so am i just tripping or does she probably think that in real life

So my gf had a dream that i smacked my teachers *** as a joke and to be funny,then i told her about it and she got mad and slapped me and broke up with me,then she went to go get pizza and my friends follow her and leave me and then they went to the pools and they were telling her it would be ok and she will find someone else and then she said she was flirting with one of my friends but she doesn't remember who it was she just remembers it was one of them and then i got mad cuz why would she flirt with someone if she doesnt think they are cute and i got mad cuz im thinking that she thinks one of my friends are cute or watever and she told me she doesn't think they are cute and tbh im a really jealous guy and i want her to only think im cute or watever and nobody else cuz i want her to my self.well anyways i got mad at her cuz im thinking she liked one of my friends in her dream and shes like it was a dream its nothing but i kept telling her why would she flirt with them if she doesn't think they are cute,she kept saying it will not happen in real life.

So does she think one of them are cute,or am i just tripping and just forget about it and move on

So theres this guy name chriss and i really hate him,he used to try and make moves on my gf and she told me about them,he grabbed her *** and was trying going down her pants and up her shirt,and she told me wat he did and she pushed him away and i literally felt like beating this guy's *** but my gf said no cuz she doesnt want trouble,so i didnt do anything to him so i told her to stay away to that guy,dont talk to him,block him from fb,instagram or watever and she did.thats was like a few months ago,then last night i woke up and got thirsty so i went to get some water then i went to sleep and after i fell asleep i had a dream that my gf was talking to chriss idk how he got in my house but my gf was there too and hes telling me wat he said to her cuz it was supposed to be funny,and im like wait u talked to her and hes like yeah wat the big deal about it and i look at my gf and she had the face like **** he caught me,so i leave the room and shes like are u mad and im like ill be back and i slammed the door hard,so they know im pissed and go to another room crying and a few minutes later shes still with him talking and laughing,and i told her u promised u wouldn't talk to him and shes like wats the big deal im not going to cheat it felt like she didn't care at all,she kept defending this guy and it pissed me off and made me sad so i just started punching the wall

Wat does this mean cuz i woke up really sad and scared it can happen in real life

My gf was sleeping and i was still up and i decided to do the stupidest thing ever.we both text in KIK and i made a fake account saying that she was cute and kinda flirting with her,i made a fake name and everything and she woke up and said that he was texting her and i was acting like i didn't know anything and then shes like are u that guy and i. Said no then shes like dont lie to me or we will have a problem and i told her and saying i was sorry and i call her and text her but she doesnt respond she looks at them but doesnt respond and i feel really bad about it and i wish i never done that now she doesnt trust me at all.I been with this girl for 9 months and i do love her,i also told her imma give her time to cool down and we can talk when shes ready but even when shes ready she won't talk and we are both 15 and i would go to her house and talk to her in person but her parents will hate me if they see me at their house without having their permission to go they will hate me and i try to to see this girl all the time and i know she loves me but now i feel like she doesnt anymore and will probably break up with me but we promised each other we wouldn't give up on each other unless its cheating and we havent cheated on each other,yeah i mess up a lot and i do feel sorry for all those times but i dont think she will trust me for a while or at all.Yes ik i have issues and trust issues especially and i wish i can get rid of those issues and i do try to but there will always be a time where i would **** up,i usually fix big fights with her by annoying her by calling her to talk and it takes hours to stop making her mad but she wont even say anything to me and ik i ****** up and i want her to stop being mad at me for ******* up but life doesn't work that way,i just want her to listen to wat i gotta say,we been through alot in the past and we are both mega jealous and thats wat causes most of our fights,i dont know what to do,i dont want her to break up with me cuz that will break me really hard and i dont want another gf i want to keep this one i really dont care if u think im a pussy or a ***** or whatever i dont want to look for another girl and i don't want her going with another guy.I wish theres something i can do please help i would love some advices