Lana

like if there is something in reality you can't get but in your dreams you can...

i hate paprika.

i am talking about food.....:D

i am a female and a gay guy told me that i am his life?

is this supposed to be a friendly gesture?

Every time when i fall in love with someone, they disappear from my life.

But when i want to forget them they appear out of nowhere?!

do you prefer make up or led lights?

I am a 20 year old female! When I was 11 years old i had to move schools because of my family circumstances. My mum put me into this boarding school which was like 13 miles away from where i lived, also because i played piano she put me into music school that was near my new school. At first i was anxious because i didn't know anyone but as the days and weeks progressed i started to settle in. Then out of nowhere i noticed this girl from one of my music school classes, she also played the piano and had the most beautiful face i've ever seen! Ever since noticing her i became so obsessed with her that when i had to do studying in the class i was unable to do it and i got shouted at from teachers for not paying attention! I felt like i was hypnotised by her! Then as weeks progressed i got even more obsessed with her looks and i started having problems at home, i couldn't even live my own life anymore, i was constantly thinking of her! When i had to go to music school, she was the only thing i was thinking about, i was dreaming about bumping into her. Later i found out that she was moved from my class and the only time i saw her was in choir lessons, it left me feeling empty and i thought i was going to go crazy!

When i saw her in the choir lessons, i started to notice her red kinda orange looking face cheeks, they looked so cute, unlike other people's red faces she had amazing red cheeks. I also noticed that she always held her arms up like a mannequin, it looked weird but cool!

Later that year my mum told me that i will have to move back to my old school and that i won't ever have to come to the boarding school and music school ever again!

After i moved back to my old school, all i could think about was her! I started copying her so i wouldn't forget about her! I colored my cheeks red and imitated her arms but that wasn't enough for me so i desperately tried looking for ways to find where she lived, i found this telephone book in my house and because i knew her name and surname i found her father's telephone number and her house address. As soon as i got the telephone number i started phoning to her house, i remember i phoned her at least 6 times a day for like 2 weeks non-stop and i never said anything i just listened what her father would say. Later he found out who was phoning them and my brother got in trouble, he thought that my brother was after her, thank god to this day none of them know that it was me.

I know that this is a long story but can someone explain to me what this sounds to you like?

I never fancied her like i fancy boys and i know that i am straight but what the hell happened to me in that year?

Today, for the first time i was trying to make sushi, i cooked the rice and other ingredients then when i rolled the sushi i was unable to cut it into little pieces because the seaweed was like chewing gum, it actually stretched. I tried cutting it with every knife i had in my house but nothing seemed to work, any suggestions what i should do with it? thank you.

Are you a workaholic? And when you do rest, how do yo spend your free time and for how long do you rest? Thank you for answers.