Lesly

My boyfriend and i have been dating for 6 years now and he want to take it to the ultimate level. Lately he has been sneaking in my room and sucking my **** late at night. Then when we watch movies he likes to stick his hand in my crotch. Next he wants to preform oral sex on me which i am not ok with... Do i break up with him? Lol it seems like a unrealistic story but its true :(

Im trying to change who i am because i noticed that i can cause lots of grief in my family by the way my personality is right now. They always say to me that they are sick of it and cant wait till i move out. I feel very bad about this and want to change but the thing is that i feel like im getting nowhere because i feel like they dont love me anymore. If they ever do say i love you its quite rare. We always have these long talks that happed at least 2 to 3 times a week whitch gets very annoying, they say im wasting their time but i truly want to make action instead of talk for 5 hours. I get very motivated to do stuff mentally but never act on it i dont know why. My perents are really good at what they do and I sometimes feel like they give me so much but never really care about what i feel. They are really good perents and i dont want to let them down they say i might have some mental issues. I want to leave but at the same time i dont and i have nowhere to run, I constantly feel like crap, unloved, lonely, sad, horrible. I have no self esteem and no pride in myself. I don't love myself either i need help am i suffering from depression? I need answers.