xxxStaciexxx

Or can people change?

The past: YOU DO NOT HAVE TO READ THIS- I've known this guy, Walter, for 3 years, about. We started out going out and we really liked eachother but I wasn't ready for a relationship at all, so we broke up. It was pretty mutual. We continued to text eachother and hang out every month or so, which was weird. I had a boyfriend last year (that wasn't him, obviously) and this encouraged Walter to say he loved me for some reason. I loved my boyfriend, though, so I stayed with him. Anyway, my boyfriend and I broke up soon after (he broke up with me for his best friend) and I continued to talk to my ex, who had a few on and off girlfriends. We stopped hanging out, only once every two months maybe until...

Now: READ, please :)- He had a girlfriend for about three months very recently, and completely loves her. But her parents are racist and threatened to kick her out if she continues to date him (he's black). He recognized the hoplessness of the situation, and broke up with her. He was really sad. Now we've been hanging out more often. I sort of like him, but since a relationship between us has never worked and he just went through a horrible break up I don't think there's much of a chance. He told me he enjoys my company and acts a lot of time like when we were dating, putting hearts at the end of texts and stuff. I don't want to be his rebound, but I honestly do like him A LOT. And I know him really well. But I just don't know. The other day, he asked me to go skinny dipping with him and his friends next week, which I refused to, and yesterday we hung out and he tried a little to convince me again. He's never acted umm.. interested in sex or in my body.. just interested in me as a person.. Until now. It's all very weird. He texted me last night asking if I had fun when we hung out, and I tried to sidetrack him by changing the subject because I really didn't; he seemed depressed and out of it, and I was a bit bored at times. Also, I was beginning to feel that a relationship was hopeless with us, so I was sad too. I don't know what to do or think. I think he just wants to use me to have fun and get over Christina, but then again I know that he did used to have feelings for me, and might still have some now, and I know he wouldn't intentionally hurt me.

Bottom line: What should I do? Nothing? Cease contact with him? Be his friend? Date him? It seems too soon for that...

And why? :)

To read? Personally, I like first tense to read but it's overused so overall I usually opt for third. What about you? :)

Okay, so I was in a relationship with this guy, and he said he loved me, but I told him I was unsure if I loved him back yet. I know for a fact I had strong feelings for him but... I just didn`t know at the time if it was love. He broke up with me two months ago (for a lot of reasons that made and still make no sense to me but I wont call them stupid) and now I`m basically telling myself and him I love him, because the break up pretty much killed me, and I don`t see how it could hurt so much if I didn`t, plus I just FEEL it... How could I have not felt it before though? Is it just because of the human nature of "wanting what we can`t have"? Could I just be making up excuses, since pre-break up I claimed I didn`t love him? Anyway, that`s what he seems to think. I`m just wondering if he could be right. I have tried to get over him! Nothing seems to work... How do you get over someone you were either in love with, or at the very least had strong feelings for? (So there are two questions within the question, do you think I could have/do love(d) him, and, whether I did/do or not, how can I get over him?)

P.S I know that was kinda long so I don`t care if you skim through it or whatever... Thanks for your patience :)

I know bike riding is out of the question, but swimming is okay.. Is rock climbing?

Or to love one and like another?

Or can you only love one person and maybe be attracted to a few others but only really want to be with one?

Should you just believe him? Considering you love him, and he has no reason to lie? Is it silly if something just makes you doubt that he could love you?

This guy asked me out three days ago (and I said yes), (random background info: we were good friends for a really long time...he had a girlfriend) and now he`s always flirting and wanting hugs, saying cute things, and holding my hand (boyfriend-stuff) but I seem incapable of doing anything back. I never think of anything sweet to say and I get really nervous when he touches me (not in a wrong way!)... How can I get over this?

Me and my guy-friend (who I like) and I haven`t talked for a while. I think it`s because whenever we talk it`s always the same thing; 'hey, how are you, whats up', so I want to send him a cute message to hint that I like him and get a new conversation going, not the same normal things... What type of thing could I say?

:) Thanks in advance

Whenever I try, they always end up sounding cliche :(

First of all I want to say this isn`t for homework, I found these haikus on here (written by one of the users)... Anyway, what do you think they mean?

The bending reed sees

The oak crash in winter gale

Then feels the reaper.

The seeker of words

Lays out questions of the mind

To answer the soul.

Link: http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index;_ylt=AsdDm...

Okay, this is one of my worst, and I`m not very fond of it but I thought it was worth sharing... don`t be too harsh... (I`m 13 by the way). Constructive criticism is always welcome :)

A Melody

By: Me!

Flesh endures relentless fire

Metal courses through the bone

Impaled by abuse and fury,

The scream of musical tone

Poisoned wounds seep crimson

Those eyes weep broken tears,

Fights without a weapon

While chained to morbid fears

Devoured by obsession

Left in ruins on the floor,

Aggressive compulsions seize

Until truth becomes no more

Unremitting tales of horror

Gouge at the pitiful soul,

Graves depict the future,

Demolish that once whole

Pain provides this harmony

Cries will produce the song,

A melody formed by hatred,

A tune for a life lived wrong

have a pickle that you could eat over and over and when it did it would automatically materialize back and you could eat it again and again and it always would (also, it can`t talk but it can WRITE it`s really smart as smart as whoever you want it to be as smart as :) but kind of boring :D)...... OR a crayon that never gets smaller or dull, it`s always sharp and it actually talks, can`t write thought like the pickle, and its not smart (not stupid either though), and it can draw as good as ummm any good artist that you want it too :)???

SORRY this is a little long!!

Thanks for your help :)

Nightmares

Nightmares of broken butterflies

Wings torn, their voices faint lullabies

Personal demons solemnly warning

Of the bitter red skyline, bleak and mourning

Beasts, crimson rivers, pointless questions

Only twisted images and distorted reflections

Suicide in slow motion, a bitter sweet sort of pain

Begs the mind to wonder if daybreak truly came

Blown away by storms, left alone and wet

Collapsing into dust from secrets forever kept

Separated by the line where good and evil bend

Yet another sleepless night, who knows when it will end?

In this horror something else lies

Majesty even in these heartbroken cries

Somewhere inside every terrifying sight

I see beauty in nightmares of the night

~I`m not too sure about the last stanza, should I keep it, change it, take it out?~

"The trick of love is to never let it find you.

It's easy to get over missing out.

I know the how's and whens, but now and then,

She's all I think about."

(From the song indiana by Jon Mclaughlin)

So.. agree or disagree (basically about the first two sentences of that part of the song)?

So, I`m only 13, and just started writing, don`t be too harsh but if you have any ideas on how I could improve it is would be great :)

(no, I`m not talking about cutting or anything, its figurative.)

Oh and I`m sorry it`s long~!

Tears of Blood

Tears of blood lurk under my innocence

Layers of illusions mask my existence

The indomitable tears, down they pour

Numerous red dots stain the floor

The perfect sphere of blood, I watch it shatter

The flawless droplets seem to shiver as they scatter

Scream of bitterness, shrill and cruel

Abuse me, I`m nothing but a tool

Pure rage of isolation

Subdued cry of desolation

Arduous denial becomes a pathetic gasp

Ignorant departure from all things I cannot grasp

Overreactions, fault of decision

Forming sobs, wavering vision

Regretfully I let the cries free

Again tears of blood fall malevolently

~Stacie~

Don`t be too harsh, please, I`m only 13. And any constructive criticism would be great, or just any help on writing the last two lines..

The Shadow

Vigorously running from the shadow that is me

I take a glimpse behind, and run with more intensity

I cringe at the impulse to go back and end the chase

Knowing my wounds from the past can never be erased

Pleading mutely to the dim light ahead

A ghost among the living, both alive and dead

At a loss of warmth, welcoming the cold

Gagged by blackness, I do what I am told

Dwelling upon nothing, listening to silence

Being joined with the shadow, attempting no defiance

and I`m stuck right there. I only want to make two more lines in it but I`m not sure what to say.

I just... can`t be with them or anything for a reason that`s all my fault... they don`t even know about it yet... and if I tell them it will probably hurt them even more than if I just leave their lives without telling them why

I really think this is best for them, but they`ve been through a lot in the past and I just really hope I don`t hurt them... but it`s too late....

I think I love them and I all want is for them to be happy, and with me they aren`t but without me they aren`t either so I really don`t know what to do...

I think I`m in love with them but I have to let them go... how do I make them forget about me? this will break my heart, but it`s something I need to do.... again it`s completely my fault.....