Jane

First off, I'm not fit, I'm a total nerd, I don't have a boyfriend, and my best friend lives more than a hour away.

Now I know that already sounds depressing, but lately I've just been feeling lonely, and mad..

I don't know what to do, and I need help, but I don't want my parents to know because they'll freak out.

I want to do something crazy, it's too boring here. But I'm too young.

What do you guys think?

I just want to find out a good way to loose weight, a way that wont cost mone. good exercises? good meals? You know. I really want to turn my life around.

He is just about the nicest guy, and I dont know if he likes me, how do I kno?, and what do I do if he does? I like him allot.. But how would I know?!

My crush messages me first all the time! Whataya think?

I talk about him waaayyyyy too much. How do I get my mind off him?

Hey guys, this is really long, sorry. :\ BUT PLEASE PLEASE READ THIS ALL!! so, my brother's friend is awesome.. But there are lots of things going on. First, ages: I'm 13 and he is 16. I dont think our age gap is too bad till i think about what it will be like when we go to collage. Second, his relationships with other girls: (this is long and confusing) ok, so, he is NOT a player.. He is sweet and nice, but everyone says that about their crushes. He dated about a year back, the girl was mean, and didn't let him have friendships with other girls. She ended up getting pregnant with another guy while they were dating. Ovieously they Brock up. Then just a few months ago, he started liking this other girl, that didn't work out.. Now he has a crush on a girl who also has a crush on him. And I totally ship them.. Umm yeah, that just means I see a relationship between the two of them. (this all sounds different then how it really is). three, our friendship: as people, we have so much in comman!! it's REALLY weird. I have been friends with him my whole life. He is my brother's best friend (my brother is 16, 17 neat month) but our parent were\are friends so I've known him all my life. He comes over.... Barely.. :( he only lives a hour away though. When he comes over we kinda hang out. And I've had a crush on him forever. BUT! We've only started talking last fall, over Facebook. Now he talks to me 4 out of 7 days of the week. We talk for hours, and he makes me smile.. I feel like it's all so stupid.. Because I haven't seen him in a year.. I KNOW, I KNOW.. but he's coming over for my brother's party. And hopefully we will hang out then. I find myself thinking about him, and talking about him WAYYYYYY to much to my best friend. I always remember times we did stuff together, when I'm in church I remember that time he was pretending to be mr bean and he fell on the floor during church, when I'm driving down the road I remember when we biked down the road with my brother late at night during a lightning storm, when I go outside on our porch I remember him playing his uke In a HUGE windy rainy storm, when I brush my hair I remember that time he asked for a comb, and he forgot to ever give it back, when I ride our scooter I think of the time he rode with me around our house, and made me laugh really hard, you get my point.. :P he calls me sis, and I dunno if that's how he thinks of me. I Try to get him off my mind but it never works. The other day we were talking and he said he was coming to my brother's party I said I didn't know if I was coming cause I don't really like all of my brother's friends. And he said "but you love me!" I told him I did. Sorry, that's not a big deal, anyway our friendship is weird 'cause it has no firm ground, we aren't close friends, but it seems like we are. I don't think he likes me, cause he is always talking about thing girl. I want him to be happy.. I am happy for this lucky girl too. My brother doesnt know we talk. I don't think he would be bothered by us being "close" friends at all. And it's weird posting this cause, if he reads this., he will know it's me.. So, yeah.. I know so much about this guy.. But it seems he knows not ALLOT anout me. Help? What should I do?.. 3:

Hey guys, this is really long, sorry. :\ so, my brother's friend is awesome.. But there are lots of things going on. First, ages: I'm 13 and he is 16. I dont think our age gap is too bad till i think about what it will be like when we go to collage. Second, his relationships with other girls: (this is long and confusing) ok, so, he is NOT a player.. He is sweet and nice, but everyone says that about their crushes. He dated about a year back, the girl was mean, and didn't let him have friendships with other girls. She ended up getting pregnant with another guy while they were dating. Ovieously they Brock up. Then just a few months ago, he started liking this other girl, that didn't work out.. Now he has a crush on a girl who also has a crush on him. And I totally ship them.. Umm yeah, that just means I see a relationship between the two of them. (this all sounds different then how it really is). three, our friendship: as people, we have so much in comman!! it's REALLY weird. I have been friends with him my whole life. He is my brother's best friend (my brother is 16, 17 neat month) but our parent were\are friends so I've known him all my life. He comes over.... Barely.. :( he only lives a hour away though. When he comes over we kinda hang out. And I've had a crush on him forever. BUT! We've only started talking last fall, over Facebook. Now he talks to me 4 out of 7 days of the week. We talk for hours, and he makes me smile.. I feel like it's all so stupid.. Because I haven't seen him in a year.. I KNOW, I KNOW.. but he's coming over for my brother's party. And hopefully we will hang out then. I find myself thinking about him, and talking about him WAYYYYYY to much to my best friend. I always remember times we did stuff together, when I'm in church I remember that time he was pretending to be mr bean and he fell on the floor during church, when I'm driving down the road I remember when we biked down the road with my brother late at night during a lightning storm, when I go outside on our porch I remember him playing his uke In a HUGE windy rainy storm, when I brush my hair I remember that time he asked for a comb, and he forgot to ever give it back, when I ride our scooter I think of the time he rode with me around our house, and made me laugh really hard, you get my point.. :P he calls me sis, and I dunno if that's how he thinks of me. I Try to get him off my mind but it never works. The other day we were talking and he said he was coming to my brother's party I said I didn't know if I was coming cause I don't really like all of my brother's friends. And he said "but you love me!" I told him I did. Sorry, that's not a big deal, anyway our friendship is weird 'cause it has no firm ground, we aren't close friends, but it seems like we are. I don't think he likes me, cause he is always talking about thing girl. I want him to be happy.. I am happy for this lucky girl too. My brother doesnt know we talk. I don't think he would be bothered by us being "close" friends at all. And it's weird posting this cause, if he reads this., he will know it's me.. So, yeah.. I know so much about this guy.. But it seems he knows not ALLOT anout me. Help? What should I do?.. 3: