Krista kiwi

need it to be in oregon, prefferably close to bend. dont know if that makes a difference, but you know, different markets and such. any ideas?

i always feel worn out, im super irritable, and i feel like crying at everything now. i never used to cry before. i feel like its an everyday struggle not to be so emotional, just to try to keep up to who i used to be. im fourteen! why do i feel like this? what can i do to get rid of this?

i just need to know somewhere close ad for a low price. im thirteen and have alot of stretchmarts and only like ten bux but im losing wieght, and not only do i hae to get rid of these to be happy with my looks, but also becase when i walk in some outfits and my legs rub together my strecthmarks pop out and like hurt. i need to know where to get gel vitamin e pills!!!!!!!!!

i have shcool during the day and its like 6 degrees outside in winter here but i need to lose wieght. r there specific foods and stuff i can eat to lose wieght? its my new yrs resolution and i gotta lose wieght for my health anyway, but i still wanna have time for friends and gettin good grades. any ideas?

ok i have this wierd thing where wen i think of something, if i think about it jus slightly more than normal, and i mean just a lil bit, like a food or something i ate, i can taste it. like no joke taste it like im eating it at that moment. and when i think of time i got hurt, like physicly hurt, if i think about it like i sed wit the food thing, i can feel the pain again, literally. like, my frend acidently stabbed me in the leg a few years ago and wen think about it like this, ican feel the object meeting my skin and piercing it. same with smells and hearing peoples voices and feeling myself like fall off my cou7ch or sumthin. im just wondering do other ppl do this too or is it just me?

ok well it aint that bad but its kinda wierd, is it like this for other ppl? ok so if i see a hot guy/girl ina movie or in real life that i like, i dont know how to explain it, like it somebody is in a fight and is gettin really hurt or something, i kinda idk it like it idk like hot to me or somehting. i love scenes in movies when somebody i like in the movie is getting in a fight and getting really hurt, fighting back or not. i love fighting myself, and pain dosent bother me, but for some reason like fighting scenes in movies or in real life i really like. i guess i think its hot or something. its extremly wierd, anyone else like this?

i kno this sounds stupid to be asking for help for, but oh well. im usually a pretty brave person, long as im being smart, but i will not be brave with my mom. shes raised me as a single parent all my life so i can understand y we aint as much connected as we should be, but i have so many angry feelings toward her, i want to scream at her. but i cant, cuz i kno for a fact, all shell do is scream back, and tell me that i need to get my act together and all this. alot of the time, i feel like the worst person in the world, cuz she never realizes what i do right, only what i do wrong. when i was little, we used to go down to the park, and fight basicly, like me and my frineds, and i would always feel btter. i kno that sounds bad, but i love fighting. and i kno that ill never be able to talk to her about anything. sometimes, ill look at a window or a mirror, and imagine myself punching it and breaking it. iv never broke anything, but the urge to hurt something that makes me mad is getting stronmger and i rally dont want to hurt anything, and stupid breathing exercises dont work. what do i do to keep my cool?

ok well im 13 and since i was like 5 iv been having these wierd panic attacks, im afriad of dieing and when it even crosses my mind, i freak out. i breath faster, my heart races, my temperature goes up, and i feel kinda dizzy. i twitch all the time just randomly, and i rock myself to sleep at night. the twitching dosent scare me, and i dont mind rocking myself to sleep, but the panic attacks scare the crap outa me. plus, im constantly looking around, like i think somebody is there, and i have conversations with myself just to plan what im gonna say someday. i dont hear anyone reply obviously, but its just kinda wierd. and sometimes, when i go to bed at night, in that place in my mind where im not sleeping but im not awake, ya know that? ya well, i can hear somebody get really close to my face when my eyes are closed, and scream something in my ear. then i pop up to smack someone or punch somebody, and theres no one there. i can almost swear i feel them breathing down my neck sometimes.but there is nobody around me.im not crazy, but i want to know whats wrong with me. how can i stop having panic attacks, how can i stop being so parranoyed, and wtf is the voices thing? like its always someone i know. usually my friends voice, or just somebody iv heard before, but i cant tell who it is, like an angel or sumtin. help me out here?