elizabeth

Suddenly I have been overcome with uncomfortable feelings in my relationship. I was perfectly fine for the first three months but all of the sudden I have no sexual drive and I am become overwhelmingly anxious and uncomfortable. 

I still love and care about him and I want to be around him but we tried to have sex and I had a panic attack and couldn’t do it. I looked it up and it may be some sex aversion due to my anxiety disorder but how do I cope? What can I do to go back to who I was before this?

A few years ago I was in a relatively happy relationship. One night he spoke about god and life and the future and suddenly I felt anxious and uncomfortable. That feeling stayed and even being touched by him made me want to shrivel away from him. I ended up breaking up with him the next day because I couldn’t handle the stress of that feeling. 

Years into the future I am with someone that I have been very happy with for three months now. He mentioned the lack of sex lately and that he thinks it’ll be an issue in the future. We had a conversation and suddenly I once again feel uncomfortable, scared, almost sick. I feel panicky and anxious. I feel like I need to distance myself from him but I don’t want to because I know that’ll strain our relationship. I want this relationship. Not at this exact moment because I am uncomfortable, but I know I don’t want to lose him. I am so stressed out and I have never found anything that explains what I am feeling, what this is. I don’t want to feel this way anymore. I want to be able to cope healthily and move past this.

I went to the doctor and did a urine test and it was negative for pregnancy, but I ended up having sex a few days later with no protection. He didn't finish and I wiped up the pre-ejaculate before he entered. We only did it for a few minutes before I decided against any further. It's been five days since then (I am on antibiotics & probiotics for a virus I have.) and I wiped in the bathroom and noticed the TINIEST spec of blood, I kept wiping and made sure that it was coming from my vagina. It never got any bigger then the size of a dot from a pen but it never went away either. I was wondering if this is even possible to be implantation bleeding or it's my antibiotics making screwing my PH balance (which im sure it has considering my discharge is insanely different.) and because its so raw down there that I made myself bleed? I am still a week or two away from an expected period and unfortunately we had sex during the week or so of my supposed ovulation. I am definitely going to get a pregnancy test but to ease my troubles until tomorrow I could use some answers.