irun

last night i was on a x and drinking heavily, which made me black out and wake up in a "wtfck" moment..and well its 'causee..fck ive been havin fam problems recently, and i started up on the drugs again (ecstasy) and drinking heavily. which than caused some friend problems, 'cause they had nuff. which made it worse on me. i want to stop sooo bad. buh i cant trust myself one bit. cause im scred im a jus relapse like i always do.

i seriously need help, like i need goood advice, not jus out of the book sort of stuff.. i need ur opinion and like experiances with this. please.

on drugs,(mainly ecstasy) and i dont know what i should do now..? this was my biggest fear and,it jus happened..

i do want help, because lately i've just been making all the wrong decisionsand i feel like its nothing at all..buh what do i do? please help.

last week and ive already popped 4 ecstasy nd..idkk what im feeling really. i kind of feel nothing. i dont really feel bad or anything and im wonderin why all of a sudden i did this? and how can i actually stop?

im 15, an athlete and im almost 3 months sober of off drugs. i know its bad and thats why i stopped. but how do i not relapse? cause i helluh fiend sometimes.