Tamia

I m a 15 year old girl and I ve self harmed for 4 years, but thats not why I need help.For a while I ve been hearing voices and seeing things and everyone tells me they re inside my head. I know they re real they re from another dimension trying to get me. Sometimes I m really really depressed but then other days I can be super hyped and excited(but not actually happy if you know what I mean) I m on medication because I sometimes get really angry. I also hate loud noises and hate being in a crowded room it makes me so angry. I don t know whats going on with me sometimes I m just so confused can abyone explain to me I feel so alone and isolated in this

I'm just really panicking. I'm 15, in year 10 and I'm rarely in school due to my mental health(psychotic depression and paranoia). I'm so behind on all of my work but I really really want to pass. When I'm older I want to be a vet. I'm not exactly stupid, I'm just finding it hard at the moment. But there's so little time left. People keep telling me if I put in the effort I can do whatever I want but I feel hopeless. I want to kill myself again but there's a little bit of me that doesn't want to die. All this pressure is slightly overwhelming, do I have a future?

I just really need some help im sobbing so much. Over the past few years I've been experiencing psychosis, major mood swings and I was diagnosed with boderline personality disorder. They said sometimes there can be a trigger and I was sure there was no trigger I had a perfect childhood. But when I was 6/7 I remeber my older brother used to make me touch him and give him oral sex and he used to make me finger myself. At the time I didn't know what any of this meant and it never used to bother me up until now and I just broke down. I don't think he remembers since it was so long ago but I feel like I need to tell someone but I cannot tell my therapist. Can someone tell me if this is what might have triggered it? Am I a horrible person I could've got away but I didn't I'm so disgusted and ashamed and upset

Recently I was diagnosed with emotional dysregulation and I was trying to look up information on this and I heard it is the same as Boderline Personality disorder. Is this true? Are they linked? If not what are the differences.