Paige

I go to the gym 5 days a week, for an hour to two hours a day. I am 21 and a vegetarian. I'm in college and I have one B and three A's, but this doesn't make me happy. There is no career path that interests me, nothing really makes me happy. I do not want to get married or even date a guy ever again. I am attracted to guys but have no desire to pursue a relationship. The majority of guys I have dated only like me because I am pretty, not because of my personality or my intelligence. That is very annoying. I do not want to have kids. I don't really trust anyone, except for two people maybe. I am on Wellbutrin 300mg xl and Trazadone 100mg, one is an upper the other is a downer. I have been on them for a month and I am not any happier and I only get two to five hours of sleep a night. I rarely want to talk to people, even my few friends. I know I have potential, but there seems to be nothing that interests me. I took a four month long road trip across America last year. It was fun, but it still did not make me have a zest for life. My mind never quits thinking and death is my main thought through out the day. I do not have any reason to live and I am miserable and I felt this way since I was 12. I could say I do have an obligation to my mother but once she passes away I would surely kill myself, like Alexander McQueen.

I remember shot glasses, straws, cards and something about gary glitter surprise. If you know how to play please let me know.

If you have one that you haven't used I'd love to trade it for a Band Hero unique id for the wii. Thanks I hope you can help.

HOW DO YOU PLAY? PLEASE SEND ME THE RULES. I CAN'T FIND THEM ONLINE. I'M SO UPSET.

I have no idea what to study in college. I really want to like what I am doing so it has to be good. History is my best subject, I used to want to be a doctor for the longest time and i enjoy books and photography and fashion. I love music and I'm totally clueless. please help.

I think about suicide such as driving my car really fast into a brick wall or jumping off a building. I don't have insurance so I can't afford a doctor and I don't know what to do. But I do think it would be better if I were dead.