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I have really bad nightmares and occasionally still have night terrors a few times a year. The night terrors are a little strange considering I'm 17 years old. Anyway, I find them strangely fascinating despite their incredibly grotesque and horrific nature I can't stop thinking about them, almost like a drug. It's like looking at the polar opposite of heaven which I find not only disturbing but interesting.

Could it be possibly be that I have some masochistic tendencies or perhaps attention seeking behavior? I know that I'll take any opportunity to talk about my nightmares and I enjoy people's reactions but at the same time I enjoy thinking about the nightmares without anyone offering feedback.

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Stone forged by the ages,

Worn by the weather.

I read in these pages,

Of a stormy tether.

See these mountains,

Are not all that they seem.

Hand crafted by nature,

splitting them at the seams.

Water runs over them,

Carving it's way.

To a pool at the end,

Refreshing on a summers day.

The path it leaves behind,

Is forever engrained.

Although it has left,

The image remains.

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Is it to find that illusive cure, the scroll lost in the ages, to collect books, to love and to be loved, to wander?.. What is your life mission. What gives you purpose?

Okay I'm going to start writing this poetry now. I haven't thought of this before:

First minute : This is harder than I thought O_O Haha, I'll keep trying.

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The years have passed,

To me you are the same.

But I love you more now,

You sweep away my pain.

How that smile has dazzled me,

And those eyes have left me in dismay.

While you may have found your Knight,

My feelings for you remain.

There isn't much time now,

Soon I will see you leave.

Despite this I do not concede.

For now that our spirits have met and I do believe,

That in this life or the next,

We will see,

That I am your Adam and you are my Eve.

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Well that was from the heart and I did it all rather quickly so take into account a bit of time pressure. This is totally original by the way.

Imagine someone doing everything for you. Not just lots... Everything... You hate it because people need to do things. Suddenly kindness can turn into cruelty but can cruelty ever turn into Kindness?

I don't think so but I can't say why not.

What's your opinion. Please note that God and The Big Bang do not count as answers. They are explanations of how we got here, not why we're here.

Well this is a philosophical questions so as most, there is no true answer. There is only those who can backup their side well.

The reason why I'm asking is because people often talk about loving each other for eternity but if we are souls that don't have a gender then we would find nothing appealing about the other soul. I like to think gender is some kind of spiritual thing but I realize that we're just biological creatures. One is designed to have children, the other to trigger it. Spiritually speaking it's a rather unemotional concept.

Usually on a weekend I'll go to sleep anywhere between 12:00pm and 4pm and that's normal for me, I've been doing it for like 2 years now. So just last night my mother yells out while I'm in the bathroom "Time to pack up now" like I'm some little kid so I can get pissed and say something like "whatever you say..." and she's like "WHAT DID YOU SAY" and I rephrase because I really don't feel like an argument and I continue to do my business. When I come out again she says "Close up shop now" and again I get more pissed but this time I tell her that I'm going to go downstairs to grab a snack and I'll come up to turn it off. I do that but when I go to the office I start finishing off what I was up to. Ten minutes later my mother busts through the door all psychotic like staring at me as if I was a stranger and starts talking **** about how I dissrepect her and she'll send me to my fathers place and she says if I'm not off in 10 minutes she's going to call him. He's currently looking after someone recovering from cancer treatment so I tell her not to because that would be rude at 1:50 in the morning. She shuts the door and I continue with what I'm doing. I hear the phone ringing about a minute later and some talking. Then about 5 minutes after she gave me a deadline she busts in again saying she's called my dad who says "I don't have time for this ****" so by now I'm about psychotic with rage myself especially seeing as I had just turned off the computer before her deadline.

The next day she locks the computer room and starts talking about how "She's not going to take this **** from me anymore". I'm totally stumped because nothing she says makes any sense and somehow this is all my fault. Sounds to me like she's got a screw loose. Anyone else?

This isn't the meaning of life. It's what life means to you.

To me it means the opportunity to see what you love but can't have.

For a while I've been switching between a very dark persona and an incredibly happy persona. It's been like a rollercoaster, sometimes it's taken weeks to transition and other times only a few days. Now I find I find that I switch very quickly from day to day or even hour hour. The frequency has increased exponentially.

This has led me to believe that I might have a split personality. One that loves to loathe itself and everyone else. One that seeks destruction and pain. My other a caring, happy, vibrant light. I find either can be triggered by one or a series of events that stack on each other. Like I'm often infatuated and when I see the girl that has become to new centre of my universe I feel perfect even if it's somewhat temporary.

What do you think?

At one point in my day I feel like killing myself and in the next I feel like the world is just perfect. It's mainly decided by how my day has been going. Like I saw this girl I really like driving to school and she smiled at me. For the rest of the day I was floating on air and nothing could bring me down. Then I saw her walking to her car and we exchanged glances, I hesitated and looked away because I'm shy. So did she and she walked ahead of me and that was it, I went to my bus.

On the bus I actually cried a bit. A few tears here and there and I started thinking about the easiest way to die and why I should just give up.

This happens from day to day, week to week, etc. It's strange. Any ideas?

You're supposed to hand in a massive assignment tomorrow, there's no time left. You haven't done it. A lot of people are going to be disappointed in you and it might stop you from getting university entrance meaning you'll have to spend a year working and doing correspondence.

Taken from Donnie Darko the film. Agree? Why/Why Not?

I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. Suicide is messing and painful not mention I don't know what's waiting for me. Life is bullshit too. I'll work till I die, never be loved and die alone. I'm pissed...

I never do.

So if you want to be a good rapper do you have to know how to freestyle? When you think about it you're just selling cd's really.

I have a strange want to leave a recorder on me all the time so that I can save all the audio in my life for playback later. I would organize it by date everyday. Wouldn't it be great to sit down one day and listen to everything you heard a few years ago?

So is this a good idea? Maybe even how I'd go about it and what issues I might face?

I have a strange want to leave a recorder on me all the time so that I can save all the audio in my life for playback later. I would organize it by date everyday. Wouldn't it be great to sit down one day and listen to everything you heard a few years ago?

So is this a good idea? Maybe even how I'd go about it and what issues I might face?

I have a strange want to leave a recorder on me all the time so that I can save all the audio in my life for playback later. I would organize it by date everyday. Wouldn't it be great to sit down one day and listen to everything you heard a few years ago?

So is this a good idea? Maybe even how I'd go about it and what issues I might face?