Roua

there's this guy that i was in love with when i was 18 and we were together for a year then i had to leave my home country and come to Canada so i kept intouch with him and though that he will wait for me to save some money and go back to him so we can get married then i bring him here, to make the long story short i got hit by a car and i was in very serious condition and i had to delay my plan to go back for at least a year but then 5months later he got engaged then 5months after he got married. it's been 4yrs now and i can't get him off my mind, i want to forget him in anyway possible but i can't. i tried and dated so many guys to start a new relationship but i broke up with all because i am still in love with him. what should i do?

my problem is that my friends send me e-mails and i never receive it or i give out my e-mail address but whoever send me an e-mail or add me to the messanger i don't get the e-mail nor the friend request. what can i do?