Autumn

So... this may be a long story.

Basically, I have this friend and he's the nicest person I have ever known, very funny too. Sometimes he pisses me off, but I care about him a lot. I have a crush on him. However, he doesn't know that and has basically been in love with my best friend for all of high school. This is senior year, and I was going to ask my best friend to go with me like last year. The problem is he says he's not going at all. I really would like to go with him, but I don't want to start something if it's going to end badly. I'm pretty sure he would say yes, but I don't want to make things awkward or make him go to something he won't have fun at because he probably won't dance and it's possible he'll mope over my best friend. Even if we had the best night ever, I don't know if I would want a relationship with him...? Neither of us are emotionally stable right now, I would go as far as to say we both became friend sby bonding over our depression. I don't think that's a good place to start anything at, so...

I just don't know if I'm making excuses TO ask him or if I'm making excuses NOT to ask him. Because, I'm pretty good at convincing and lying to myself. I don't want to chicken out and miss out on what could have been, but on the other hand is there even a "could have been"?

Any help is appreciated, I guess.

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I was wondering if its possible to like lock and have a password set for a Google Chrome user thingie. Because there's the default chrome user, and then there's mine. But if I close a window of my user, then when chrome's opened again it goes straight to my browsing user. I don't like that, i'd prefer a password. is this possible?

My summer sure looks okay. But I need a project or something. The only thing I already know i'll be doing is driver's ed. but i need something else too. And I've been looking in instructables.com and I've found nothing affordable and appealing. And if it was affordable and appealing, it was too easy. I need something that will last a few weeks. :/ I've already decided I'm going to lose weight, so don't even suggest that, please. If anyone has any ideas, that would be killer. :D