Samy

we have been bf/gf for a little while and i thought nothing of us not being all huggin all the time and everything.

well yesterday when me and a couple of my friends went to go hang out with him before he left for 5 or so days. so the group was me, Kate and john(her bf) and Carlie. when we got to his house i gave him a hug and i started doing cartwheels cuz after 30 mins of sitting in a car after 3 test at school i was hyper. we were talking as the other came up and we didnt hold hands or anything and Kate said that we dont act like boyfriend and girlfriend. i just shrugged cuz i really havent noticed that and he told her that her and her bf (she was sitting on his lap and his arms around her waist at this point) had 3 weeks more than us. she let it drop but brought it back up when the pizza was dropped off. i rolled my eyes and laughed cuz her bf tickled her to make her shut up.

then after a while we started a movie. i was laying on the part of the bed and Carlie was laying at the head of the bed and He decided to lay down behind me and i layed on his chest and watched them movie.

then when it was time for me to go home he hugged me and he smiled at me and when they left he gave me another hug cuz we wouldn't see each other for awhile and he kissed me and walked me to the door where Kate and Carlie was waiting for me to get out there to wait for John to get the car.

is it just my friends words getting to me or is he just taking it slow like he said?

okay so this past tuesday i went to go hang with one of my guy friends. I've like him for a little while, but he's my "friends" ex-boyfriend. I went to his place thinking we would hang out play games watch a movie and some others would come over later. And i didnt know that him and my so call friend broke up until that morning when we were talking over the phone and i asked about them. I was flirting with him after playing Halo2 and we were watching a movie and i called him a dork. we argued about that for liek 5 minutes when out of no where he kisses me. im shocked and he pulls back to smile and kisses me away and i dont actually stop him. and we flirt on and off the rest of the time i'm over at his house.

then comes Wednesday morning and my "friend" comes up demanding what i did with him the day before. i told her we just hung out for a while. then she got mad at me cuz i wasnt telling the "truth"

and she got all mad and told me if i didnt tell her what happened(cuz he wont tell her) between us she'd do something..... i looked her in the eyes and said the same thing. she got mad and claimed that we kissed. i was "so what if we did?" cuz seriously 1)she dumped him 2) she didnt like him the 2nd time they went out 3) why should it be her bissness.

she walked away and i did everythign i could to get out of my 3rd period cuz she sits right by me.

turns out she was all honky dory about it then.

then lunch comes around and shes giving me the "i want you to die" look cuz he's sitting by me.

then the next day shes telling me things they "did" when they were dating. and i dont believe her.

and she wasnt all "die b*tch" at lunch cuz he wasn't there.

on friday shes telling me more "things" and at lunch shes made cuz he wanted me to sit next to him and he put his arm around me for a little while. and she got mad enough to slap me later on becuz he held my hand in the hallway.

(now do you see why i said "friend" in the first place)

and somehow my bestie that goes to a DIFFERENT school has to defend who i am cuz "somehow" her seeing me as a slut that took her bf from her got to her bestie hat goes to the that school and has told everyone about it becuz a lot of the fresh man know who i am.

Okay so i dumped my ex on the day before Halloween and he has been all i still love you and crap. And i know he "loves" this girl and California and have for a year or so. and hes all mad that shes engaged and then turns around cuz i was there and was "i love you 2!" and i said "bs. what ever like i give a damn." that was the week after i dumped him. then like i've ignored him sense then. Untill one day he comes up to me and is all i need to talk to you. so i stand there annoyed as hell as hes telling me to stop talking to his little sister. And in the middle of him talking on and on my friend comes and stands next to me ready to back me up on anything until he snaps at her"You're appart of this to! and kate!" She sat down becuz if she didnt calm down she would have hit him. then Kate walked to my side seeing that i was pissed and was about to explode on him came to my side.

Then he started raising his voice at all three of us and he turns toward them, so i lightly turn his chin to face me and he blows and started screaming at me. i screamed right back and then i walked off really mad, so mad i cried. then he and one of my good guy friends almost got into a fight so i had to go back and get my friends to walk away with me.

that was the Monday before winter break started.

then on x-mas eve i walk to his house becuz i wanted to give his sister my gifts i made/got for her.

and when i was going to walk home at like 6 he demanded he walked me home. and i ignored him till i told him to move over cuz there was a puddle in the alley-way. he didn't so i bumped him so he would. then he pout his arm around my waist so i push him down and away from me. then he got mad at me saying i needed to get over it. i told him to get over me!. then he went off saying how he was trying to keep me warm. 1)i was not cold 2) i dont need him near me. and i start walking off towards my house and hes following me how i should get over whatever it is and date him again.(not gonna happen) then he goes home crying to him mom and dad about how i was so mean and crap and so now he wont let me hang out with his sister or there mom/dad. and now my friends all mad becuz i dont want to eat lunch with er cuz i dont need or want to be close to her brother.

and the only way i will ever be able to hang with her is if she proves her parents wrong about "me" or i date her bro. again. and truth be told i like someone else.

goodness guys what can i do in this situation????it freaks me out that hes all stakerish

okay so 3 months ago i told her to smack me if a guy i like is not approved by her. the i started liking a guy in my class that we have known for 2 years. and then i tell her last weekend and she got all mad bcuz she doesnt like him at all and so she hit me. and i mean yeah i said she can, but seriously why the hell my friend that i consider so close she is my sister hits me cuz of this one guy. her reason was bcuz he made a perverted joke out of something she said and he joked with her about for a week. omg that was 1 year ago!

I really didnt expect her to hit me or even remember i said that.........what should i do..

truth be told he ticks me off about once a week.sometimes more. The thing is he has a gf and he cant stop compering us. and it ticks me off. whats worse is we(his gf) are almost the same just different looks and grade and sports we play. And it's gotten to the point that he compers us and to me it sounds like he is trying(hard) to make sure he has the right girl on his mind.

it ticks me off more that me and the guy i like have so much in common and for the 1st time i dont have to worry about if he a christian or not becuz we go to the same chruch and half the time hes all that i can actually think about.........whats wrong with me and what should i do????

so far i have two eyes looking a heart wit ha sword going through it and a dripping tear. what else to draw?