Smooth Criminal

I'm 19. My boyfriend is 25, has a full time job and I live with him. I can't find work.

I stay home all day and he goes to work. He dpesnt seem too upset that I don't work and he hasn't taken up offers for money when I ask to help with rent.

I really want to work.

Do you think he'd secretly be annoyed by my not having a job? I've been living with him for a month and we get along really well. I just feel guilty.

Before I go any further... I don't want your judgments on how I slept with someone I'm not going out with.

Okay, so a friend of mine has wanted to hook up for a very long time. He would tell me to come hang out with him when he was in town for the day and stuff. And one time, he came into town, called me, but I didn't have my phone on me. So he went home, and at 2am that night called me just to say sorry about not catching up and had a little talk before he went to sleep.

Another time, I slept over at his house when I had nowhere to go, and he woke me up at 7am just to cuddle me before he went for a run.

He loves making me laugh, and we get on really well.

Well, we had sex. For a long time. I came twice, and it takes a long time for me to come. Then he wanted to try for a third one, but I lost it and we had to get going. Anyway, later that night when we all went to sleep, he made me sleep in his bed and he just went to sleep.

Next morning, I woke him up because I was really horny. So he woke up, and we started having sex again... Only this time, he was watching my face the whole time. I found it unusual... Then toward the end I thought it might just look at him. It was so intense. He was staring right into my eyes for a long, long time. Like, he wouldn't look away.

I was thinking maybe he was just really turned on and stuff, but he said he was worn out... And he didn't come... He just had sex to please me.

I thought nothing of it at the time, but now I can't get his face out of my head. It's driving me nuts, because I kinda feel like I'll stuff everything up if I get feelings for him... Because I don't know if he has feelings for me like that. And he's one of those guys who hides their emotions behind being funny all the time, and texting lots of girls. He's like, the guy version of myself. We get on that well.

Any opinions on what's up?

I ask this in want for an answer with substantial evidence either way.

If we do pass on, how can you prove that?

If we just die, how can you prove that?

Curious on what people think.

So, my brother and I don't like each other very much. And he talks to me like I'm filth a lot of the time. Calls me a slut and whatever else.

I'm 18, he's 16. He is taller than me and stronger.

I am an opinionated person, and I get very upset when people try to walk all over me, so naturally I bite back.

My mum picks on me, and we argue too. And when we argue she calls on him to "take her out of here" but it usually results in him charging at me and I hit my head on the floor then he hits me or chokes me.

But yesterday, he started on me for no reason and called me horrible names. I bit back and he charged up the hall, pushed past my mother making her fall to the ground and hit me in the face so hard that it left a big black and red bruise.

Then he charged at me again, pushed my mother over some more and started pushing me into walls. Then picked me up and slammed me to the floor, head first.

He's done this kind of thing before. One time he sat on my arms so I couldn't defend myself and punched me in the face over and over until I had a black eye and a busted lip.

One day he came home from school angry because someone told him a lie that I had said something, and he was going to burst into my room and flog me. My mother had to lock him outside and I had no idea what I did wrong.

Whenever any of this happens, my mother just tells me I bring it on myself and I deserve it. But if he starts picking on her she goes off her tree. He abuses me and she doesn't care.

I'm trying to save money to leave, but it's really hard and I'm struggling because none of the family will help me.

Is what I'm experiencing domestic abuse? Or am I just overreacting? :/

I'll leave all of the details out.

But basically, he hurt me a bit when he first pushed himself in me and said I was 'tiny'...

Then he kept asking if he was hurting me all the time because I make noise.

I've never had anyone say I was tiny, so I'm kinda confused.

Is that a bad thing for guys? :/

I was trying hard all week to make time to go see him tonight and stay over, and he was really nagging me about it the whole time. I said to him yesterday, that I may not be able to, so he says "Please just try harder bub"...

I finally manage to make it work, and tell him I can stay over tonight, and he says "I have other plans now"...

So I reply with "Oh, that's okay I guess." and he hasn't responded. He's been talking to mates though.

I'm kinda upset now, because I really wanted to see him and I've been stressed out all week trying to make it work. I set aside time for this away from my uni studies, and he cancelled after he nagged me all week...

Is this one of those games guys play? If so, why the hell?

I had a dream last night that I was packing my suitcase.

I was packing, because I needed to leave for a huge and dangerous journey (of which I'm not sure)...

I kept thinking I might need things like my plush bears, and I remember packing a pair of black jeans only to think that they'll get ruined because my mother will probably ripped them up to use them as something.

Anyway, I was rushing and trying as fast as I could. And I ended up stuffing the bag full. And their were a few side-pockets that needed filling, but then I woke up.

I've had this dream before, a few months ago.

What does it mean?

Okay, so I'm 'in a relationship' with this guy. We made out once, which got pretty heavy.

He cuddled me literally all night.

Then a day later, texts me and says he loves me. Not even to my face. o.O

Seriously, made me so uncomfortable and I didn't know how to respond.

Why the heck did he do that?!!! Ugh!

Okay, so I am making a simple bank interest simulator in the program Alice for an assignment. I need to calculate the amount of years it would take to reach a target balance assuming that interest was added at the end of each year.

So the user will be able to enter their initial balance, and their goal balance, and the interest in percent paid each year.

Then the program calculates it, and returns with the amount of years it will take to reach the goal amount.

How do I calculate that in formula? And how would I implement that in the program? Thanks.

My last question got deleted... I think it was because I included an email address. :s

Okay, I am beginning a youtube project. I am making a series of videos that are incredibly stupid and the character is annoying, conceited, dumb, and just overall very unlikable...

At the end of the series when I have a wide enough audience, I want to make a video with an important message. I just need an audience first...

Are there any youtubers out there interested in partnering up to make a youtube controversy, and gain a wide audience to make this idea work? This has never been done before I'm pretty sure, so it will have a minor risk that it may not go to plan...

But it should work great if I can get enough people helping and supporting the plan. It will take a while... A few months, maybe even a year? Depending on how long it takes to get enough attention.

Who is interested? If you are, add me as a contact on here and message me for all the details. You will benefit from it too- I promise. The people involved will get credit for helping, you will have your youtube channels linked and hopefully this will change the way people see the internet and media.

The person who is the most help will get the five stars. :P

I need to have someone willing to help me... Or even better- more than one person

Thanks guys.

I want to make a point to as many people as possible. So I have chosen the internet as my medium. I am going to use youtube to make a series of videos, playing the character of an extremely ignorant and stupid girl. She is vein, selfish, mean, stupid, and just overall a very unlikable character. I want to make videos that spark controversy and make people rustled and a little angry.

I want to make the series like this, because it will get a lot of attention.

When I build a big audience I wanna drop the bomb that I'm not really stupid, and then make a speech with the message I want to send. A message that has never been on youtube in the public eye... I feel that if I can play the charade long enough to build a big audience, this message will reach a lot of people.

It is a good message- but I cannot say what it is, as I may ruin the surprise for a few people.

My question is- do you think this is a good idea? And how would you react to this if I suddenly turned out to be a good, intelligent person with an important message to share after months, possibly a couple of years of making stupid videos?

Okay, so I'm 18. I'm living at home with my mother and younger brother (who is 15).

I finished school last year.

I find it extremely difficult to find work in my town, as it is a small town and gossip pretty much destroyed my reputation.

I guess I would so I'm depressed... I have been for quite a few years now... About 5 years I'd say. I've never been clinically diagnosed but all the symptoms are there- and I have even been through quite near suicide, where I would scar my skin, obsess over dark music and I very nearly slashed my wrists with a sharp knife one day.

Before any of that, and during, I suffered severe anxiety disorder. I would plunge into panic attacks at the thought of death, up to 10 times a day some days.

As a small child I would have nightmares nearly every single night. Terrors and the like.

I was afraid of the dark- so much so that I needed to have a night-light. The dark made me feel claustrophobic and I would panic.

All through school I was bullied and alienated- and in highschool I was pretty much crucified by my peers. I was isolated and maliciously hated because I rejected my guy-bestfriend's sexual advances. From there it has been normal for someone to post a status on Facebook mentioning me, calling me a slut or ugly or anything else horrible that they feel like. Nobody ever sticks up or me and I'm so used to it that I don't eve try to defend myself anymore- even though it hurts I don't see the point.

Anyway, there is a lot more to my upbringing than that but I don't want to make this too long.

So. I live at home, I have no job and I am currently studying at university to become a IT systems analyst or something similar... Well paid jobs most of them anyway.

But my mother feels the need to make me feel like ****.

She went through a stage of about one year where most days she would just yell at me out of the blue and tell me her life would be better if I just moved out. She'd add that she hated me most of the time, and some days would tell me to go kill myself.

I would try to pretend like it didn't hurt, but it did. And I would cry a lot.

My ex recently told me to go kill myself after I told him to just leave me alone.

My brother used to always say I should just leave home or kill myself.

Also, my brother used to hit me. Not just a slap, but he would full on punch me in the face over and over and wrestle me to the ground so I could get up or defend myself. My mother used to say "you deserve it" even though he would attack me for things I didn't do.

Even though he is younger, he is much taller and stronger than me. I am short and small-framed with no muscle.

My mother also attacks me, hits me in the face, pushes me into things, pulls my hair so hard it bruises my scalp. My mother is also physically stronger than me.

I feel outnumbered and pathetic.

My mother tells me my uni course is stupid and that I won't pass it. She keeps confiscating the internet connection and my laptop so I can't get my readings and lessons completed on time.

She made me pay for my own laptop in full out of the money I don't have. I could barely afford it, as I rely on payments.

She also told me I had to buy my own wireless router, as she didn't want me using hers anymore. So I had to dig into the money I needed to purchase my uni text books.

I get absolutely no privacy either. If I put my phone down, it gets gone through. If I leave my laptop open, all my files are rifled through. They even hack my Facebook account.

I am an adult! I'm 19 this year!

I'm treated like a child and I feel like a worthless sack of coal.

Most days I just stay in my room trying to study, not talking to anyone so nobody has a reason to have a go at me... But somehow she stills finds some reason to tell me I've been a complete ***** all day and that I deserve to be verbally abused and the internet taken.

I don't get it. Am I the problem here?

I feel like killing myself sometimes, because I really do feel useless and like a waste of space.

I met this guy at a party.

We kissed. We didn't have sex but I gave him a bit of hand relief and he returned the favour.

After, he said I could sleep in his bed at his motel room. So we went back there and he cuddled me all night. And pulled me in close.

And the whole time we were together he kept complimenting me and staring at me.

I got up out of bed the next morning and he wanted me to go back to bed.

I did for a bit, but then I had to leave because I got texts from a friend asking where the heck I was.

I left and came back later on that day to say goodbye, because I was going home (I was only staying in this town overnight).

He said 'Oh, well I'll see you next time I'm here".

Then I said: "But I won't be here..."

So we hugged and he kissed me on the lips, short and sweet.

Then I gave him my number... But he didn't ask for it...

He said "Okay, well I'll call you when I get some coverage" (His phone wasn't working in that town).

Then I said my phone doesn't work properly and it doesn't accept calls.

And he said "well I'll text you."

It's been a week, and he hasn't contacted me. He said he would when he gets coverage.

Do you think he just hasn't been able to?

Will he call/text?

I met this one night at a party thing for new years.

It got really late, so he said I could stay at his motel room.

I slept in his bed and he cuddled me all night. He hugged me in close, and held my hand. And he stroked my neck.

Then the next morning I got up out of bed and he wanted me to go back to bed and cuddle?

And the whole time I was with him he just stared at me the whole time.

I gave him my number, but I doubt I will ever see him again.

He's about 23 years old.

Why did he want to cuddle so much?

And why was he staring at me so much?

Do you reckon anything will happen? Because he's very sweet and I wouldn't mind it if something happened.

I hooked up with a guy when I was drunk at a party.

We didn't kiss for very long at all because I had to leave.

When we kissed I could feel him smiling and he laughed a little.

He texted me later and said "was i ok? :)"

So I said "yeh"

Then he said "yay. your hot :)"

Then asked him why he laughed and he said "because your an aggressive kisser"

And I said "not your thing?"

And he says "Few things i'll teach you x "

And then I said "so I was bad?"

And he said "No, never said that."

So, is aggressive kissing bad?

It was because I was drunk.

Do you think he didn't like it?

What do people usually mean by aggressive kissing?

I want to know if I should dye my hair back to brown again...

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I am always fatigued and drowsy... and have a almost constant craving for candy and chocolate.

When I get drowsy/sluggish I eat some candy and I'm back to normal for almost the rest of the day.

I get really thirsty when I get thirsty and I find it hard to keep hydrated.

Sometimes when I'm hormonal my breath smells kind of like some sort of chemical and sometimes my mouth tastes like tabacco.

Lately I've layed down a bit of fat around my hips and waist (but I think thats just part of my development, as I am only 17.)

I also get tingling legs. I sit down and 15 minutes later (sometimes even less) one of my legs goes numb and tingling.

I have insomnia as well.

Okay, so I like this guy. We are both 17.

We used to text eachother ages ago, before he got a girlfriend.

We liked eachother, and wanted to start hooking up

He used to talk about hooking up and he used to help me with problems I was having with my boyfriend (who was his brother, and we broke up).

Then he got a girlfriend (someone he had sex with when he got drunk and she kind of clings to him) and told me we should leave it for a while and hook up later if we both still want to. Then he stopped texting me for a few months.

Recently he started texted me again and flirting. I kind of brushed it off, but then it became more obvious and sexual. I played along with it, then we ended up hooking up.

The girlfriend found out, but he lied and told her it was a rumour (I also lied to everyone and said it was a rumour to save both of us).

But now he's been texting me still, saying he wants to hook up again and go further, asking me for pictures and sex-texts.

Then I said to him that we should leave it again, because it was getting too complicated.

He agreed and said we should hook up when he's not involved with someone else.

His girlfriend lives in another town and she kind of clings to him... I'm wondering if shes the one holding onto him and if he actually wants to be with her.

Whats going on?

Does he love his girlfriend?

Is he just playing me, or does he really want a relationship with me?

Okay, so I was chatting through IM to a guy I have been hooking up with for about a month now.

And he asked about my day, and my plans for the rest of the day as usual.

Then I asked if he was okay, because he had whitnessed a crash.

He said 'Yeh'.

Then after a while I see this: 'love u'.

so I said: 'really?'

and he said: 'yeh/'

then I said: 'love u too :)' ... which I probably shouldn't have done, because of what happens next...

He said: 'that was sam (his friend)'

Then he said he had to go and said 'bye' but didnt sign out, he just ignored me.

So I sent him a message explaining that I said it so it wouldn't hurt his feelings.

Then I texted him saying sorry and that I would understand if he didn't want to talk anymore.

And he replied with 'Nar... its right.'

Then I said I had to put my phone away so he said "talk another time then".

Why would his friend do that?

And does it sound like he does love me or not?

I heard about the new bonus tracks from Green Day's brand new album "21st Century Breakdown". The one I wanted in particular was the Elvis Presley Cover "That's Alright Mama".

But I didn't pre-order the album, and it's not available on iTunes anymore.

How do I get my hands on this track?