Alex

I'm a junior in highschool when I go to college I'm going to Canada and will never come back to the states I hate saying goodbye. I've noticed that I've slowly separated myself from my friends and if I get close to people I don't talk to them for a while I had a plan to tell people that I was going to leave in aug of 2012 to go to university but really leave in like June so I don't have to say goodbye then block everyone on facebook from my school and change my phone number and try to forget the past I accidentally told my friend this and she thought I was kidding and she said that she would throw me a party... I can't face every one though I don't want to say goodbye... It's so final I'd rather say see ya later or something... Is there something wrong with me or is there another way to leave without hurting people???

I don't like to be in crowded areas. I start to sweat and I have to hold on to something and usually run out of where ever I am. In elevators I'm fine with two other people but more than three other people I start sweating even if I'm wearing shorts and a t shirts and have to hold onto the rails as I watch the number finally get to the number I want and when I get out I breathe heavily like I ran a mile or something. Also if I'm in a big crowd of people all I can hear is people talking everyone at the same time and start to sweat and feel like I'm going to faint if I don't leave... I usually ask to go to the washroom. Do I have Claustrophobia??????