Sharon C

OK I know this is probably a silly question and my husband and I debate it every season. But we still wonder. Maybe some New York fans or people from the area can enlighten us?

So my baby is beautiful and healthy and just shy of 4 months. I love her more then I can say but I can't shake this sad feeling. My 'super mom' powers seem to be fading the longer I'm back to work (since Dec. 15). When I first came back to work I was doing it all happily, work, cleaning, taking care of baby, cooking and all of the other odds and ends I took care of before baby. Now as each day passes i feel more and more guilty about leaving my daughter in childcare while being happy that I have 8 hours of adult time every day.

I just get so sad sometimes that I want to cry-but I can't seem to. I pump during the day and want to cry or in the middle of the night when the baby wakes up or when I'm driving. Suicidal thoughts cross my mind but I know I'd never do it because a-I'm a coward in that regard and b-I couldn't leave my daughter without a mom. My husband tries to make me feel better but in his attempts make the entire thing worse.

He'll either tell me that my feelings are stupid or make him sad but my favorite is when he promises to relieve some of my burden by helping out around the house. These promises always result in his procrastinating on everything but beer drinking. And before you know it I'm even more sad then I was before.

So my questions are these....

1-I'm guessing that this is just postpartum depression, right?

2-how long does postpartum depression last?

3-if you got postpartum depression when did it start and how long did it last?

Our beautiful 2 month old daughter is getting ready to start daycare in a couple days. Beyond that fact that I dread leaving her (despite my excitment at getting back to work) I worry that I've spoiled her to this point. My mother in law says she's spoiled because she's really only consolable by me and she doesn't really sleep unless she's being held.

We've recently started putting her down whenever she's done eating, and we know she's dry, and let her cry herself back to sleep. This usually takes about an hour then she sleeps for maybe 20 minutes. At night we've only gotten her to sleep solo a handful of times.

Does anyone have suggestions about how to get her used to other people? OR how to sleep without being held? Does anyone else have this issue?

I know that daycare won't be able to hold her all of the time and I'm worried that she'll feel abandoned. I really want to be a good mom and teach her how to be happy on her own - but she's so little. Suggestions are welcomed.

This is based on the fact that they share a stadium in north Jersey called Giants stadium or the Meadowlands. While I think thy could both have home field advantage simultaneously I wonder which season ticket holders would get to use their seats. OR would it be a lottery that would help ensure a 50/50-ish split of fans?