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My best friend? got married in Greece 3 years ago and did not ask me to be her bridesmaid or maid of honour. She casually asked me if I wanted to come and if it was too expensive I could shack up with her bridesmaids(she had six bridesmaids)She did not even ask me to do anything like go shopping with her, or get something for her I had no role I felt very hurt. Even the manager where we worked which she hates went with her to choose her wedding dress.(maybe its because I am single I do not know)

I became so terribly hurt that I told her I could not attend her wedding, I could afford to go money was not or ever an issue, it was just the fact I was discarded me and hurt my feelings, I felt there was something wrong with me.

I have always been there for her she suffers from Dyslexia and have always helped her out at work. She is very clumsy at work and often gets into trouble e.g forgets to sign for things, forgets to do things, I have always covered for her making sure she was okay.

Sometimes she would ring 3-4 times a day with problems I always helped over 16 years.

She always talk about herself , her husband her life and rarely asked about mine.

I did confront her and told her why I am unhappy that I was overlooked she just said she forgot didnot think.

Nowadays I try to avoid her if I can because I somehow resent her, she gets in trouble a lot of times at work as I cant help her so much as she was moved to another unit.

She still phones me constantly as she is trying to foster and needs people to vouch for her.

I really am still bitter and dont know if I want to be her friend? anymore.

What are your thoughts?

Would you socialise with me? I have a very few number of people who accept me for the way I am. Most people l know tend to be in relationships, or have had kids, on second marriages etc

People tend to stay well clear of me sometimes as l feel they feel awkward towards me. Some feel l have not got the experience to contribute to a conversation BECAUSE l am SINGLE and have never had a BOYFRIEND. Some people see it as an illness they may catch(achoo). By the way most of my family think I am sick. I have not got an illness probably just self confidence and fear of intimacy/trust issues.

I am a straight woman and l am ashamed to say l in the past l used to lie through my teeth about pass relationship l suppossingly had, as l wanted to appear "normal" it used to drive me insane I lied through my teeth as I felt quite embarrassed. Nowadays I tend to tell the truth as I do not care what people think, its a real conversation killer. I am an intelligent person and even though I have fantasied about how my life would of been different I have accepted myself somewhat because we can't turn back the clock. As they say life carries on,they just have to deal it and accept everyone cant be the same or get counseling ha ha!!!!