Stanislava

Hi guys. I just wanted to get something off my chest. I am 19 and I've never had a boyfriend. Which is kind of scary to me because I am afraid that I might end up being forever alone. I mean, I won't be alone. I'll have a bunch of cats lol. Aside from the jokes, it is scary to me because I feel like nobody is attracted to me, like nobody likes me or will ever like me. And it makes me feel bad. Although I don't do duckfaces in my photos, I don't dress slutty, I don't wear a lot of make up, I am not ugly. I am pretty decent, I am a nice person, I am funny if you get my jokes. I am also smart. I've learned four languages and I'm not even English js. I just feel bad about my image. And I often just sit there, just, wondering why? What do I do? I feel urged or left out by the society. Everyone in my class has either a boyfriend or a girlfriend. One girl from my class is already engaged, two of my friends got together, the rest of the class sit around bragging about how awesome their significant others are and how many relationships they've had and I sit there, squeezed between all my friends being all lovey-dovey like: "Yeah, just-- great, awesome. Can you-- can you, please, -- like, stop making out...? We're in Maths class, not PE. It's up next. You can play tonsil tennis then. Kthxbye" 😐

And on the other hand I have these parents that, dear god, I can't even..they are terrified of the fact that I'm growing and someday I will have a boyfriend.

Thanks for reading.