Nora

this guy (he's a famous person) i really like alot invited me over to have a couple of drinks but i feel like im not ready yet to meet up with him (we've been talking on facebook and on the phone only) he always invites me but i find excuses to not meet him.. im just not ready; im scared he's not gonna like me and also afraid that if i keep refusing his invitations he's just gonna stop talking to me .. whatshould i do ...

Every time I m with a guy and things gets heated up he reaches for my hand to put it on his penis I just pull it over and make something up so I won t touch it , I don t know why I just don t wanna touch or even see it cause then every time I ll think of him , he s penis would be all I see in my mind and I don t like that , I wanna do something about it And I feel I like its not normal at all, I m scared and I don t know what to do , what s wrong with me ?