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It start out as a melody

A silence of words without an absence of meaning

You play raging seas and dark valleys

Isolated in one body

Deep... Deep within that smile

Deep within that flat expression

When you paint silly little moments

Each of it creates a great comfort

Then when it all became stagnant

Every sound of your breath shows your broken soul

Trapped... Trapped by that bleeding scar

Trapped within that glass wall

It's all too much for us

It's all too much...

And our time is short

It's too short to shatter the wall

But it seems so clear

If only I can turn back your sand clock

I'll take all that pain from you

And I'm only dreaming...

Our dreams resonates brightly

Our passion of touching the world with different forms of art

It all will be the last dream I'll ever have on a brother

And you will be the last man I'll ever pour on to

With all my heart, strength, mind and soul

I say you are my brother for life

And someday I hope the glass can be broken somehow

So... We can be on the same page

With the same brotherly oath

Last night was cold

Thoughts were running like a river

Those moments that I've wasted

They are all gone forever

Lost in the frames of past

All I saw was fading memories

Those mistakes I've done

Those words I've spoken

Can never be taken back

Sometimes I want to close my eyes

Feel the air I breath

Listen to the tinkling piano

And thank god I met you

When I open my sight

And see these uncertainties

The abandonment scares me

But it won't stop me be a better man..

What is life?

What is friendship?

What is love?

What is affection?

Every soul killed those pure concepts..

And they wonder why their world is tasteless

Nothing more than mundane lifestyle they have

Brotherhood has been lost a long time ago

Could any men answer me why?

Why can the biblical David and Jonathan be so close?

When David cried for him

When they embrace with full passion

When Jesus embrace his disciples

When one of his disciples lay on his chest to hear his heart beat

Nobody. No one ever judge them like we judge ourselves for being abnormal.

In the ancient, blood oath among two guys are seen as sacred and admirable

They cut their flesh and swear their loyalty and love to each other

Nowadays men think it's gay to even say I love you to his brother

Where did all those friendship go?

Today we say "we're just friends" to protect ourselves

"Friends" no longer a sacred relationship

Friends are now superficial and cheap

We think sexual love is higher love

And if friendship gets too intense then it'll be sexual

What a huge pitfall humans have made for centuries..

So I'm making a change. Nobody sees it as what it is.

Maybe you do understand. Maybe I have to trust you and myself.

And stand strong for this.

Stand strong even if I have to be alone for a while...

But my prayers always say

Please stand by me... I don't know a lot.

But I know you said you wouldn't leave me.

That's all I know. That's all that makes me swear my life for you.

I'll get better. I'll be a better man each passing day.

I swear... I'm only human...

I'm not the messenger of divinity

I'm a human who is dying to make a change..

Cause I want my children to live in a better world than me.

And because I'm human...

I need you to trust me

I need you to need me

I need you to stand by me.. Don't leave.

I'm not depressed

I'm not sad

I'm just being human.

Who needs mutuality..

That's what Jordin Sparks said on idol. So is it about brotherly love?? It does make sense if I think the lyrics from brotherly love perspective. If so I'll sing it on my best bud's bday! I miss him so bad...

For professional or struggling actors. What drives your motivation? I personally found this is why I'm born for. I have core and side reasons for it. I want to inspire humanity, I want people to think about their lives and change the way they live when they see my acting. Other reasons why I wanna make it big are to prove that my parents are wrong and narrow-minded (they said I won't make it big simply because of my race, I'm Asian.) and someday when I make it big I wanna move to New York so I can see my best bud more frequent. Most importantly, i can feel its in me. What about you guys? Also, I'm planning to move to the states, which state would you suggest for beginning actors? I'm currently based in Australia, trying to finish my acting school and college. I'm learning acting under Meisner technique and I love it, I feel my instinctive skills constantly moving forward. What trainings you guys had? How is it?

Can anyone recommend any academical reference?