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I'll try to keep it simple, I love this girl, we've know each other for 4 months, you can read my last questions for more detail. But recently, I feel that "Just liking" has become more than that. and I don't want to hang out with her because It hurts to be with her, but not be intimate.

So for the past few days I've been, kind of looking for excuses to not see her, but she knows something is wrong and asks me, asking me if I still like her, I do answer and say I still like her, but I "Love" her, I don't want to make it seem like I'm about to force her to be in a relationship with me, so my question is what should I do? How should I tell her?

All help will be much appreciated.

I started talking to this girl about 4 months ago, she started texting me first, got my number from my sister. 2 weeks after we first started texting each other, she started asking me how I felt about her, I didn't really give her an answer after a few days she asked me, we still kept in touch during that time. I finally told her how I felt, I said I liked her, she said she liked me too, so I asked if she wanted to go out with me, she said yes, Two days after that, she said she wasn't ready to get into a relationship and says she's still a young, and she is unsure of how she feels.

After that we just pretended that never happened and just stayed friends, we got more intimate, I started hanging out with her and her friends every morning when we got to school and during lunch too, until one day she said she wanted a break from hanging 24/7, I said sure, honestly I thought she wanted me out of her life when she said that. But then the next day she gave me an excuse to go to her locker to see her new hairstyle. I was really confused, I didn't question her on that matter.

But I just assumed she had no feelings for me, until one of her friends texted me that she wanted a kiss from me, I then asked her friend if she was sure, she answered: "YEAH I'M SURE! SHE LOVES YOU!". Honestly that just clouded my reasoning on her feelings for me even more, I wasn't sure if I should believe her friend. The next day, at the end of the day, she told me that her friend told her what she texted me. She asked me why I didn't kiss her, I answered with: "I wasn't sure if you really wanted me to kiss you.", She then answered me with: "Regardless of what I want, you should do what you want."

A few days after that discussion with a still strong friendship, she said that she made a bet with one of her friends: "First one to kiss a guy" > I was suppose to kiss her on the next morning. On the next day when I got to her locker, she jumped on me and kissed me on the lips, she was aware that it was my first kiss. She then yelled to her friend: "HA! I win!". She then also reveals to her friend that she kissed me on the cheeks for my birthday a week earlier. Later on that day during class, she texted me that she was sorry for the kiss, and then said: "I'll give you another kiss at the end of the day, actually maybe you should kiss me instead." So I went to her locker at the end of the day and kissed her before we left school.

As Christmas was coming close, I thought I should get her a present for Christmas, I decided to buy her a teddy bear, some mittens and chocolate. She always throws in: "Want to snuggle with someone/You didn't hug me." In our texts, basically an excuse to tell me to hug her tomorrow so I thought I'd get her a cute little teddy bear.

It was the last day of school before we go on Winter Break. I gave her the presents, she opened it and said she loved the presents and gave me a hug, she said she was sorry she didn't get me anything for Christmas, I said it was fine and she gave me a hug.

As winter break passes by, she texts me a lot more often during this period, she asks me questions like: "What are you up to?".One day, she then texts me that she misses me, I'm not sure what to take that as. So more confusion arouses around her and my relationship.

I'm sorry if it was long to read, but I really hope that someone could share their wisdom and help me out here, as I am just a normal boring school boy that has no experience in love. I want to know how she feels so I can do something or just be able to move on.

Extra:

She asks for hugs pretty often, I don't see why she wouldn't ask other friends, am I just a tool for hugs?

I seem to be the only guy that hangs around her.