Free-floating through life and don't know what to do anymore.?
You could say I'm lost and confused about this whole ordeal, but I'll start from the beginning. It was the last year of High School and honestly that creeping realization that "everything will change" hit me like a ton of bricks. I was on autopilot most of the year and it wasn't long before it was May of 2005. I was depressed. Very depressed. School was all I knew you could say. Sure I slept there every day 'cause the classes were dull or boring, but it was alot more fun than what I do now. Anyway, last day of school, Devry shows up and I'm interested in going. I had ignored most of the college stuff until the last day (ironic huh?), and at the time I was unaware of student bonds, scholarships, etc.
So I graduated, and went to Devry in July. The idea crashed and burned during the application process due to the cost. $21,000 a year, not including all the little extra fees. I gaveup on that dream and I guess you could say I settled into a quiet life leeching off my Mom until October of 2007. I had no motivation to do anything. My Mom never really pressured me into doing anything and I never really did much. Sure I did a few chores around the house, but that was it. I tried to get a job here and there, but with no car/ability to drive legally/carpool/no public transporation/family not wanting to help I was effectively stuck where I still am today.
In October of 2007, called up my old teacher in High School and asked if there was anything I could do. They said no. My best and only shot told me "No." It wasn't until later in that month, the week before halloween, I got a call from my Aunt and offered me a place to stay and a job. Or rather, the ability to find one. So on the weekend before Halloween, she came and got me and drove me an hour away into her little apartment. I slept on the couch for a week and went to her workplace and basically did nothing. The local paper proved to be useless for finding a job and the fact I don't really have any skills (workplace or not) doesn't exactly help me get a job any easier. She suggested I get a job with benefits, but I was just looking for a job, benefits were merely a perk.
During my whole stay, it seemed we were mentally fighting eachother every step of the way. Every suggestion I gave was shot down, and to "prove her point" dropped me off at the nearby mall and said to find a place that will hire me and "we'd go from there". As I said earlier, I have next to no job skills, and in a big place at the mall. I was pretty ******* nervous, and broke down only getting one job application (Gamestop for those curious) before I called my Aunt and said I was ready to come back to her place. Nothing really happened after that. I lasted a week up there and moved back in with my Mom and nothing ever really happened after that. In a way, my Aunt probably will never see me as the same person again, but I've never been much to care what other people think of me.
Off and on from 2008 to now, I've tried to get a job but my living situation hasn't changed since. I visited Facebook earlier this week and found out that most people I grew up or graduated with, are doing just fine with life. They're happily married, out of college, successful, or a combination of those things while I am "stuck" in the same square I've been in since Graduation. I'm wary to place a small amount of blame on my parents. I was never motivated or pressured into "going out and getting a job" or getting a car or anything life that. Hell, I've lived in the same house/area 90% of my life.
I guess what I'm asking is, with next to no money and a 15-20 minute drive from the nearest town, what can I do?