Question to Eternal Realm?
Actually, I have many questions, but this is the most urgent one. Why do you care about getting a PhD in philosophy? What do you care about the tests and awards devised by academics? Why not devise your own tests?
This is my most urgent question because it seems to me the most glaring inconsistency in your thinking. Another is your regret of not being born in 1844. This is inconsistent with amor fati. But then again, amor is a psychosis, isn't it...