Talked to ex! I feel guilty.?
Last night I drank a little too much. I was having a great time chatting with a friend online when my ex boyfriend IMed me. I answered. He said my website looked great. I don't really remember what we talked about but after like 15 minutes he said that he had to go and that he would talk to me later. I answered " if you have the guts."
That's when I received a phone call and it was him! He got my number of my website. I havent heard his voice in over a 4 years. We talked for a while but i was teasing him. I wanted to see how far he was willing to go. He said he had to go but i practically begged him to stay on the phone. I was drunk and alone and i guess i liked the attention.
What I feel bad about is that I have a boyfriend of 3 years. I LOVE HIM so much. I would never do anything to hurt him. But i feel like i have by talking to my ex.
Should i feel bad? I want nothing to do with my ex. Infact after we talked for a while I told him to not call me again. I would rather not have this guy in my life anymore.
I feel like i was drunk to and gave him the upper hand. He is the last person in the world that I would want to look like an idiot infront of. He really hurt me. He cheated on me and got married immediately after i foudn out.
I hate myself for talking to him and especially begging him to stay on the phone.
I pretty much just spoke to him .. to make him see what he lost. But i feel so guilty bc of my boyfriend. I pity him for losing me but i pity myself for even giving this guy anytime.
He has been trying to talk to me for a few months now. He has a girlfriend too. What does he want? why after 4 years is he trying to talk to me.
I also got a lot of my chest and told him how much he hurt me. He apologized. He said i was a great person.
I feel so guilty.
I put my number on my site because it's my contact information. I guess I should take it off.