What do I follow if this is what I believe in my heart?
If I believe that the Earth and all it's living things..the air, the water, the wind, the dirt, the trees, etc, are connected and can communicate. If I believe that the natural disasters of hurricanes, volcanic eruptions, etc are the Earth pissed off at humans for abusing it, and almost fighting back. If I think animals are the most sacred thing, hate hunters, animal killers, abusers. They are powerful, innocent creatures and I think they have an amazing spirit and know something we don't. If I look at a beautiful scenic area with lush green trees, or a lake or something and see it as a artful masterpiece. If I think love is the most powerful element. If I do NOT believe that prayers are heard or answered. I believe in stillness and mediation to guide..almost from within. If I believe that any two beings from anywhere can be connected beyond comprehension to most. If I don't believe in a firey pit of hell or devils or Satan. That is there is a hell, it's Earth and this is all a test, if you pass you move on to better, if not you try again here. If I believe in spirits. I used to go to church, churches always said God's love is for all and is unconditional. But I don't believe them when everywhere I read Christians say horrible things about gays, lesbians, trans gender, bisexuals, black with white, asian with hispanic, etc. Therefore they believe the Love of God is for some, not all and is conditional. I don't believe if there is a God, that he would ask one to change themselves or be miserable. I don't believe he would love me less for loving and committing to a relationship with one of the same sex. Not if a human has enough love for someone to not ask these things of them...God's love is supposed to be greater then a humans ability. Why would a powerful God allow hate and war and cancer and rape and murder and abuse and pain? Why would a loving God make all people for the rest of Earth suffer because of one apple eating persons ?