The graying sky only reminds me of how very alone I really am family members go on their way and leave me alone to reflect upon lost loves, lost lives lost hopes and lost dreams a reflection of innermost digs I sometimes wish I could reverse the story and replay events that changed the course of my history uncontrolled life decisions and a Godless lifestyle that created remorse in the soul But I have....changed that is God is in my heart God is in my soul He's forgiven me my sins So why can't I?
The graying sky reminds me of how very alone I am.....
2011-10-23T08:21:49Z
edit: I'm not as sad as this seems to sound. I'm very happy in my life. Just had a sad moment.
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a heartfelt poem, yet to answer your poem if God has forgiven you, then you have already forgiven yourself, for the Kingdom of Heaven is within you,
If I could change anything in my life, I wish that I had never come into contact with the principles of Buddhism. I am not a Buddhist (far from it) but the ideas of buddhism will always impact me in a negative way.
I sometimes wonder if I could ever be a Christian again, but I think I have been born-again one too many times. Lonliness is a feeling I had never experienced before 2010. I still find it too curious to be really painful.
alone i've been from the beginning of time... alone with a fifth in the dark it sit... must always i suffer through life all alone... guilt and pain an endless refrain alone again, must i always remain?
it appears that "alone" is a reoccurring theme in what i think my best work. "there are no gobacks no matter how hard you try". yes i am familiar with the desire to change my history. i am glad that you can gain some strength from faith, i have a hard time doing so in recent decades. self forgiveness is always the most difficult to receive because you must ask for it from your greatest critic. i have a gray sky today too. i hope writing helps you as much as it does me.
We were all toddlers once trying to walk. We all had to experience knee skin scrapes. Knee skin scrapes does not mean Godlessness, only childhood playfulness. The skies will turn blue then white then grey for all life around you, including you, must change and through it all, He will be there.
Yes Shirley, we all, or many have moments like that, and deal with them variously. I also agree with those, that you are part of this family please know that, cared for. So I will echo, "Big Hugs."