I really dont like my mom:(?
I used to purge. I stopped bc i felt sick all the time, and i think thats one of the reasons why i'm anemic.
i started because my mom kept reminding me that i was gaining weight. she always says that im gonna be the perfect daughter she ever wanted.
she always reminded me, dont eat that. watch your weight. you dont wanna look like a cow. blah blah blah. and when shes mad she says im worthless
now she has me on a diet and i honestly dont think i need one but ever since i started ive been getting headaches and stomacheaches cause of hunger. i told her but she says its all in my head.
i eat 3 very small portioned meals. i do dance and run whenever i can. Im 5'4 and 120 lbs i think? anyways now she criticizes me over everything and i just cant take it. i hate being home bc of her. everytime my dad says i dont need a diet im a growing teenager she says i look like a cow and thatmy dad needs to stop lying.
i quit swimmimg but im just so self consious now and shes yelling at me for quiting and im just kinda sad and tired of acting happy and holding back tears and im venting rn but what do i do? ik some pple have it worse but it really bugs me even tho i should just let it go
i just hate that i dont care about what anybody else thinks except for my moms. her words really hurt.