I'm trying to quit self harm, and I need advice.?
Hey, before you decide that I was cutting for attention, let me clarify a few things.
First; I didn't do it for attention, I did it for over 5 years and I only told one person because they asked and I wasn't going to lie.
Second; Something happened to me, and it kinda ****** me up. So I had some severe issues, and never dealt with them. So cutting was my way of coping.
So, I'm 18, been cutting since I was 13, no one knew, suspected, anything. I tried quitting, but the feelings got worse (I get depressed, suicidal etc)
So cutting was the only thing that gave me relief, A couple other things did, but as soon as I started loving it/them whatever, something would happen and I'd lose that outlet. Well recently I was writing, because thats also something that semi helps, well i was writing in my note book, that I always have with me because I dont want people to read it, just writing how I felt, well it fell out of my back pack and someone found it.
They are making me talk to a counselor and made me promise I wont cut anymore, but recently it's take everything in me not to reach for a blade. I can't because I won't break a promise I make, but I dont know what else I can do? I dont really like being around people my age, I work a lot and am pretty shy so I dont really have friends, I tried drawing but people just tell me my drawings are gross/mentally wrong when they see them, is there anything I can do that will help me get some of these feelings out besides cutting?