child abuse and sexuality?

I think abusive I've been through has an affect on what I like sexually.I like when guys call me dirty name or spank me so hard until I cry. I just feel like when a guy does those things to me it means he loves me and it makes me feel good especially when a guy spanks me.what's wrong with me?

Andy C2014-07-11T17:31:48Z

Your brain has equated and confused abuse for love. This, unfortunately, is completely natural. It does not have to become abuse if you do not want it to. Most women and some men are wired this way in order to survive.