Dealing with jealousy over a partner's sexual past?
So I'm a college freshman, nearly 19 years old, and I haven't yet dated anyone, I'm a virgin. But I've read a lot about sex, so it's not like I'm clueless. However, I feel it's safe to assume that most girls in the age range I'd be looking to date in college probably won't be virgins themselves. Part of me is okay with this, but another feels a bit jealous over it. I'd be losing my virginity to someone who'd already lost theirs to someone who wasn't me. Logically, I know it probably shouldn't matter, they're with me and not them and all that. It would also depend on how many people they'd slept with and under what circumstances. But there are times I feel a mix of anger, jealousy and a little resentment when I think about it. Maybe I'm letting my primal instincts get to my head too much. How am I supposed to know if they really value me and our relationship, and maybe even wish I'd been their first, or if I'm just another notch on the post to them? Any help would be appreciated