I have nothing. The love of my life betrayed me. My family is toxic. MY sister dont want to make memories they are introvert no matter how much I try. I feel so empty. I have no passions. I try talking to God but that takes time I assume. It hurts so badly. I dont know what to do. I just sit at home all day crying and missing happy times when no one did me wrong. What do i do?
lilybaby2019-07-22T01:30:34Z
I feel you, man. It's like the whole world is suffering from depression. Like the emotional climate literally just died. Imma pray for you.
Get rid of the toxins in your life. Just because you have people who you are related to, does not mean they are your family. Start living your life and find small things to make you happy. Do things like go to the YMCA ( if you don't have money to join, ask if you can volunteer at the facility (or if they have any jobs ) in exchange to use the facility and go to the classes), try to find a job you like maybe at a library, respect yourself, if there is a zoo close by see if you can volunteer there or find a job there. Take a knitting class or learn to knit by watching UTube or do some type of needlework like cross stitching. Find a hobby. Be productive and leave the poison behind.
Life is such a struggle. I am a father and I’ve been battered beyond belief by a psychopathic ex-wife who destroyed me in court and let her new husband abuse my son and if I had tried to do anything about it I would’ve been arrested. Cops and DCF and court did nothing. She stole tens of thousands of dollars from her own son’s SS benefits and money from me. But she works for the state and I don’t so they always gave her a pass and never suspected her, always me.Then I went to psychiatrists because the Family Court that she worked for told me I had to in order to see my son even though they didn’t tell her she had to, Even though a therapist I was going to concluded that she was a ‘mild psychopath’. But Psychopaths are very good at charming people superficially and fooling everybody, Like Ted Bundy for example. So the psychiatric drugs they gave me destroyed my health physically and mentally. Now I just have to smoke low high CBD pot in order to try to self-treat my PTSD. Life is hell.