EMPTY WHAT DO I DO?

I feel you, man. It's like the whole world is suffering from depression. Like the emotional climate literally just died. Imma pray for you.

Bro this is one of the hardest stages in life as a Human Being we must overpower this and don't let these moments define the outcome of our life.

Get rid of the toxins in your life. Just because you have people who you are related to, does not mean they are your family. Start living your life and find small things to make you happy. Do things like go to the YMCA ( if you don't have money to join, ask if you can volunteer at the facility (or if they have any jobs ) in exchange to use the facility and go to the classes), try to find a job you like maybe at a library, respect yourself, if there is a zoo close by see if you can volunteer there or find a job there. Take a knitting class or learn to knit by watching UTube or do some type of needlework like cross stitching. Find a hobby. Be productive and leave the poison behind.

Life is such a struggle. I am a father and I’ve been battered beyond belief by a psychopathic ex-wife who destroyed me in court and let her new husband abuse my son and if I had tried to do anything about it I would’ve been arrested. Cops and DCF and court did nothing. She stole tens of thousands of dollars from her own son’s SS benefits and money from me. But she works for the state and I don’t so they always gave her a pass and never suspected her, always me.Then I went to psychiatrists because the Family Court that she worked for told me I had to in order to see my son even though they didn’t tell her she had to, Even though a therapist I was going to concluded that she was a ‘mild psychopath’. But Psychopaths are very good at charming people superficially and fooling everybody, Like Ted Bundy for example. So the psychiatric drugs they gave me destroyed my health physically and mentally. Now I just have to smoke low high CBD pot in order to try to self-treat my PTSD. Life is hell.

Religion can be helpful but it is not a magic bullet and it sounds like you need address other aspects of your life. I once heard when it comes to depression religion will get you so far but eventually it will fail you. Do you have access to a counsellor or therapist. There are online support groups. www.dailystrenght.org and www.supportgroups.com jump to mind. But truth be told they are only good for short term relief through venting and they often have a large amount of troubled individuals on them who you may not want to rely on for comfort.

Do you have any friends you can share these problems with? If not finding a way to put yourself out there would be helpful, I know it is easier said than done, especially if you are introverted. But if you have any opportunities to do so maybe try acting on them. Good luck.

Get out of your house and help people. Volunteer. Sheesh, come on man !! It's not rocket science.

I'm gonna kill myself! Wanna join me in a suicide pact??? I just can't put up with people anymore! I've had enough.

PLEASE, stay strong, rock - solid! no matter what!

I just humbly wonder whether you're young enough to be my daughter/ son....

by all means I clearly understand you're traumatized and depressed - and it sounds clear enough why...

I think there are things to change in your life …

it's probably about time for you to stand up for your human dignity and quality of life.... yes...

and to start striving to build a life of your own,in a way allowing you NOT to be at the mercy of ANYONE's good or ill will...yes....

Do as I did.

When no one was around I would ride my bike or drive my car.

You never know who'll you will meet.

Time to let the grief heal and to then decide anew.

"Everybody Hurtz - Zometimez"

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