I'm ugly but why instead of being humble with low self-esteem I'm very cocky rude and arrogant?

Narcissistic tendencies. Its good that you are able to consider your behavior. You try to compensate. 

No one cares..............

Reaction formation. Look it up

I’m not sure Mr. Trump. 

Whats exactly ugly.. Im tall.. Athletic build.. Broad shoulders.. Like over 40.. With a 30 hips ratio. I'm 145 pounds. 6 foot 1 and a half. Blonde hair blue eyes. Full lips. Pale and tan. i got good style and dress well and comfortable. Plus I could be rich one day. Stfu you jealous envious b itch... You wish.. You wish that were true.. Plus i get tons of female attention.. And them practically throwing themselves at me with very little effort on my part. You are the one who is ugly... You stupid liar.. Ots not even a good lie.. Ha! Pathetic miserable low life b itch...

Why not? You're entitled to be.

No matter what anyone, including society says, appearance is NOT important. Being a good person is important. I am suggesting you don't worry about your appearance at all. It's not important. As far as being rude and arrogant: It doesn't pay. If you're nice to people, they'll be nice back. If you're arrogant, you may be a success with other rude people, but you won't really be well liked. Everyone wants people to like them. People like nice people.

You seem to be fighting your lack of self-esteem by going into overdrive to try to prove you have GREAT self-esteem.  Eventually your own realisation of your "faults" could send you into depression which nobody, including you, would ever want to see.

Yes, you CAN change things, but it's 100% up to you to want to do that.

In other words you are an asshole?  Good luck finding friends with that attitude.

try to socialize more, reduce ego but keep your dignity