got high with boyfriend and he dumped me after...?
just yesterday my boyfriend and i were doing perfectly fine. we agreed to buy a cart. it was already opened when we got it, but we still hit it anyway. i don’t smoke much, he smokes a little more than me. i took a long hit off of it and was completely ****** up. he dropped me off at home, then unadded me on everything. i had my friends text him, he said he was freaking out and didn’t know what to do. he said he loves me , but can’t be hurt like that again. he hit it before i did. he didn’t have to hit the cart. so him being “hurt” was on him. i literally felt like i was dying and knew i still wanted to be with him. he said it was happening “too fast” even though he agreed to it. i am lost at this point and don’t know what to do. i’m hoping he’ll come back but i don’t think he will... i think he was extremely paranoid like me.
i know it isn’t cool. i didn’t do it to be cool, i did it to be numb from emotional pain. i know it wasn’t the best thing to do and i’m completely aware.