Was my father a pervert ?
I’m 20 now and my father hasn’t been in my life since I was 13, he was really abusive and an alcoholic/drug addict. I’m starting to think about the past when I use to live with him and question things he did, I know he was abusive (physically, mentally) but I’m starting to think he was perverted towards me also. For a long time I’ve always felt like I was touched as a child but I just can’t remember, still to this day if I get touched a certain way I’ll feel uncomfortable. My dad used to always take videos and pictures of me, and he has one video of me at like 5 years old completely naked. He used to watch me use the bathroom to make sure I “wiped” correctly and would beat me if I didn’t. When I got older (around 9) I passed out once in the shower and I woke up to him staring at me, it made me extremely uncomfortable because I was starting to grow pubic hair and he was staring at it and didn’t get me a towel. When I was 10 I was molested by his friend, when the police confiscated his friends computer they found child porn on it. I don’t know why but the police also went through my dads computer and I guess they found child porn also, he said the only reason it was on there was for “research purposes” against his friend. I believed him for a long time until I got older and realized how weird that sounded. He used to tell me I had a big butt when he was drunk. Then as I got older he started to bully me and call me fat. Does he sound like a pervert?