Someone help me, give me hope, i... i feel like dying, i wanna die, i hate my life...?

Please read my words carefully:

If you see footmark in the sand, you'll say that someone passed from here...

If you see a piece of dog sh*t on the ground, you'll say that a dog passed from here...

So what about the enormous universe, the sky, stars, planets, earth and all the beauty in it, doesn't it lead to that someone made it?!!!

Some people say that everything is created by itself after the big-bang... I won't ask you about what caused the big-bang, but I'll ask you a simple question:

If you take all the letters of the alphabet, multiples of them, and you threw them randomly on the floor. Do you expect (by a chance of one in infinity) to get a poem like shakespear's??!!

Can't you see how organized our universe is, the planets, the eco-system on earth, look even in your own body... Can you control your heart-beat? Can you control your breath while you're sleeping? Who stopped your eye-lashes from growing after reaching a certain length? Who told the baby turtles to move towards the sea and not to the earth after they come out of their eggs? Who taught the bird how to make nests?

My friend, think with your heart and brain. If you're still lost, think about the following:

Do you know how to play safe?

Your point:

If there's no God and you do all what you want in life, then nothing will happen to you after life. But if there was God and you were mistaken, then you'll blame yourself FOREVER...

Believer's point:

If there's God and I followed His commands in life, then I'll be in Heaven after life FOREVER. But if there was no God and we're mistaken, then nothing bad will happen to us after life...

Now you know how to play-safe, in case you're not convinced?

Come back to God and you'll find Him standing by your side...

I know this is gonna sound like a load of crap. But we have all experienced loss and pain. We have to otherwise we wouldn't appreciate the good times. And I've said this part before. Don't focus all on your problems. How many children have died without experiencing anything how many can't walk, talk, see, etc. I mean I am not saying this to make all your probs seem trivial or to make light of them but how bad is it really? And how much worse could it be? Life is complex you are struggling with THE QUESTIONS. What is the meaning of life? Why are we here? Why do bad things happen? Is there a God? And if there is a god why does he let these things happen? Is there life after death? If so what is it like? Not even the brightest minds in the world have been able to answer these questions. Some are able to dilude themselves into believing they found the answers. Or just try to crowd so much other stuff into their lives that they don't have time to think about them. Or say there is nothing we can do to answer them or to stop death so why bother thinking about it. We have all experienced the rage and depression and all the other feelings these questions bring up. And we all have our ways to deal with it. The prob is we each have to find our own way. What I said earlier about not focusing so much on my own little world is how I deal. I hope I have helped and I hope things get better for you. Just know we have all been there. and can sypothize.

Well honey, ur life certainly hasn't been easy. I believe you need some bereavement counselling 4 a start, that will help you find ways to deal with your grief, your gp can refer you. sometimes wen parents are upset and angry they say things they don't really mean. I'm sure they love you very much but are having difficulty coping with the situation just as much as u r.16 is a difficult age without all the added stresses you've had. As 4 ur girlfriend, I know it hurts now, especially as she's a support 4 u, but ur incredibly young. If you let her go and you really do love each other she'll come back 2 u, honestly she will. It'll also give you some time to become a stronger person and deal with the issues u have at the moment. x

You do believe in God. You are just wondering why these things are happening around you. I'm sure you are asking Him why these things are happening. You wouldn't ask if you did not beleve in God! It would be kinda silly to ask of someone you don't beleve exists.

One thing about problems is surviving them makes you better and stronger. The reason why things like this hurt is because if they didn't you would not pay attention to them and learn from your experiences.

With your girlfriend, since you both have made promises then you don't have a problem. Your promise can keep your friendship.

Thi is a good opportunity to show your strength by supporting your cousin. Be there for him/her. You'll be surprised what you will gain.

Lastly, I think you need to simplify your life a little. At 16 you should enjoy your teen years. Sounds like you are taking on a lot of issues that someone your age should not deal with. Take it from a 37 year old.

I have been there. 8th grade was the worst for me... cried every night... was teased at school... parents were emotionally not available. Thankfully I wasn't abused though. I'm almost 30 now and somehow made it through though! I'm not sure how old you are, but if your parents are abusing you, you have every right to call Children's Services. Keep in mind, this might cause you to be placed in Foster Care, but it might mean that you get the help you need, as Children's Services can provide that to you at no cost. And I would hope the family you get placed with is better than your current one. I'm going to be a Foster mom soon... and hearing stories like this makes me remember why I want to do it so bad.

Life is really hard at 16, and it seems you've had a lot of tragedy in your life. You sound like you could use some counseling, and not because you sound crazy, just because you're having a hard time dealing with the things that have gone on in the past few years. Hang in there, talk to someone. I'm about to turn 51, life DOES get better... Good luck

A lot of bad luck in a short amount of time. That is unfortunate for you to have to go through all of that. Instead of giving up on yourself, you should try to straighten things up with your family. Talk to them and let them know what your thinking and maybe they'll begin to understand you and be there for you. Your only 16 years old. That is a confusing age. If your girlfriend feels the same way about you then don't let her parents get in the way, try to meet with her as much as you can. It will take a while coping with all the people that have passed away and there is nothing anyone can really say about that, you'll just have to let time ease the pain. Your still young, you have so much time to straighten things out and get back on your feet. You can do it. Good luck.

I have to agree with your family. I think you are self-centered. What do you think your friend's family feels, or your cousin's family feels? Or the rest of your family who's losing members?

They're hurting just as much as you!

The world is not against you, and neither does it revolve around you.

Try to be more empathetic with your friends' family or your own and be there for them rather than only for yourself. As for the dying part...are you really sure you want to do that? Or is that you feel everyone will finally think of you too since you're "gone?"

Your girlfriend's parents are right about you guys just being friends...you can't even handle how you feel inside, how can you handle having a girlfriend?

Talk to your family and talk to your friends' family for closure...show some compassion for everyone else and you'll find your peace. If you don't believe in God...take a look at yourself...YOU are still alive.

Be thankful.

It sounds like you are going through a lot of turmoil and I'll try to answer you as best I can, even though it seems there are multiple things that are upsetting you at the moment.

Before I go further, I need to emphasize that if you really are thinking of ending your life, don't do it! Instead, you should go to the emergency room of the nearest hospital and get yourself checked out. This is the best thing to do if you really are worried that you might harm yourself.

Aside from that, I think you need someone from outside your immediate family whom you can speak to in person on a regular basis. Ideally, this would be someone professionally trained to deal with situations like yours, such as a psychologist, psychiatrist or at the very least a professionally trained social worker. Perhaps there is a counselor at your school who can point you in the right direction and explain to you what mental health services are available.

While everyone deals with the loss of close relatives and friends at different points in their lives, it certainly sounds as if you have had more than your share of loss over the past few years. I can appreciate the grief and emptiness you must feel now that those people whom you loved so much are no longer available to you. If you have any close friends who have also lost relatives perhaps speaking with them will be of some help, as they truly will know how you feel. As for your cousin, he is not dead yet and I imagine he would like to get the most out of the time he has left. I'm sure he would be very grateful for any time you are able to spend with him. Even if it's difficult for you, it will probably make all the difference in the world for him. In the end both of you will probably feel better.

As to the situation with your girlfriend, I don't know her or her parents. However, I can understand the parents' reluctance if they believe that their 14-year-old daughter is in a very intense relationship with you. They undoubtedly feel that she's not yet ready for that intense a relationship and only want to protect her. From that perspective I can understand their reaction. Even though I realize you want to be with her, if you think of her parents' reaction from this perspective it might make it easier for you to deal with the situation. Lowering the level of intensity will probably be good for both of you. One can't predict what the future will bring, as you are both still very young, but I think treating each other as friends for the moment will make it easier for both of you to deal with the present.

Finally, I think that writing about your suffering is the first step along the path to getting through it. Though it may be very hard to see right now, coming through your grief and despair will ultimately make you a stronger person, someone who is better equipped to deal with future challenges and who will also be able to help others when they are in need.

I promise you that there is light at the end of the tunnel, even if that tunnel sometimes seems very long. You are not alone, you will get through this and I wish you the best of luck.

William

New York City

Talk to somebody you know and trust about this. Looking for help on the internet is good, but you really need somebody that you're spending a lot of time with in person that can look out for you and help you. Ideally, this would be somebody older, although if you don't have anybody older a friend would be better than nothing.

If you don't have anybody older, or a friend, I recommend you try to go to a counselor. There's nothing wrong with doing it--going to a counselor with depression problems is just like going to the doctor if you've got the flu--and the counselor can probably help you talk through a lot of what you've got going on and give you some advice. If you're not able to get to a professional counselor, try talking to a pastor or teacher or somebody like that. They're not professionals, but they usually have some training that can help you, and they usually don't take a job like that unless they're willing to help kids in need.

I'm so sorry for all of your losses. I know that life sucks sometimes. I'm sure right now it feels like life sucks constantly. I'm sure you don't want to hear all of the sayings like, life's tough, or it will get better, blah blah blah. But guess what. They are true. It will get better and there will be room to breathe even though it probably feels like it is hard to breathe now.

Life can throw some really hard stuff at all of us. It is how we choose to deal with life that makes us. It is hard to stand up and take it. Sometimes life does seem to knock us on our asses, but you have to get back up.

I have been to three funerals in the past 6 months. It has been really hard. Two were a husband and wife who died 5 months apart. Their children, all grown, have a really hard time sometimes, but they choose to make their lives full, even though it hurts.

I know you hate your life right now. Please don't give up on it. I really hope you talk to someone. Parent, family member, friend, teacher, counselor, someone. Let them know that you are hurting and need help dealing with things. I wish you the best.