I really need some good advice !?

i,m sorry that you can't see the baby. it will take time for you to stop missing him so much. but one thing you might try is to get a job working with children or visiting sick kids at hospitals.it sounds like you are a loving person who loves children. it might help you to cope with missing the baby better. children are so good at stealing our hearts. hope this helps.

In the process of taking care of the baby, you have got very much attached to the baby. It is natural that you are suffering. Crying almost everyday will not do any good. Make sure that you focus your attention on someone else who is in need.

Once you are convinced of doing good, don't worry whether others are appreciating you or not. Try to gain inner satisfaction this will make you very independent.

Sounds like you want a baby of your own. Getting this fixated on another person's child is not healthy. Sounds like you scared them away by being too possessive of the baby.

u can not own which is not really your's.

do not help them ,instead you adopt someone else from orphanage home

hey... dont worry... there would be surely some affection developed but that need not make weak....... be strong. time is the best medicine.....