What the hardest thing you have even done, how did it affect you emotionally?

THe hardest thing i've done recently is try to accept the death of my father. He died in January of a heart attack and I just don't understand why he had to die and why I can't ever see him again and its taken quite the toll on my emotional health :(

Not talk to my best friend. She was being a "jerk" and not being considerate of my feelings and not really being much of a friend. For instance I helped her move all of her stuff into her new apartment, the guy she deals with told he he couldn't help. (By the way he treats her like sh*t and constantly tells her how they will never be together) So we moved everything; beds, dressers, tables, I mean everything and then I stepped out only to come back to her apt to find her guy in the bed and covers thrown out on the floor for me to sleep on. There is alot of other stuff also, all having to do with her ditching me or forgetting about me for him. Once she didn't speak to me for a like 3 hrs when I tried telling her he was all wrong for her, she was wasting her time and just using her. I finally got fed up with it all and so I haven't talked to her for about 3 days. She still doesn't see where she did anything wrong and all she can say is that I am not being a friend since I am giving her the silent treatment, hahaha, after all the sh*t she has done to me. I am not too upset though because I know I have always been a good friend to her and don't deserve to be treated so bad by the person who says they are my best friend. This has been going on for almost a year and when I finally bring it to her attention all she can say is I am wrong and hung up the phone on me. I was hurt, but I have come to realize that although sometimes people get wrapped up in person and think they are in love, a real friend would never treat me the way she has and expect me to stick around.... She is manipulative and self-centered and in the past I have always been the one to extend the olive branch to make amends, but I am fed up and I think it is time I show her enough is enough. All the best.

When i was 16 years old myself and some friends were high on LSD and unfortunately had a shotgun and a revolver with us. My friend james who i had known most of my life was very high as we all were and he was playing with the shotgun,.. he pointed it at a couple of us and was laughing and joking around then he pointed it at himself and said "look guys im Kurt Cobain" and shot himself in the neck. James died. None of us had any idea of what to do it was a very scary thing. We decided to call the police finally even though we were high because james was obviously not with us anymore. I ended up being arrested that night because i was out of mind. It is really really hard to wrap your mind around something like this when you are on acid. I dont really wanna go into anymore detail as this still really bugs me to think about. But, as to how it affected me emotionally, for probably the first 2 or 3 years i tried to act like it didnt bother me. I accomplished this by staying as high as i could and doing a lot of real dumb things. I guess i was finally able to somewhat come to terms with this, and realize that a felt a hell of a lot of guilt over it. I dont think i am really over it at the age of 27 now but who knows if you ever can be.

questioning myself, kind of personal, psychic check-up

Happens every day and beeing honest to yourself is not the hardest thing, but acteing on base of the logical consequenes of the answers can be so hard. It´s called responsebility.

How does it affect me? I´m growing and hope to become a good mom.

To finally end my marriage after almost 20 years of trying. To finally admit to myself that it wasn't going to work, no matter what I tried. To realize I should have been stronger much earlier and change my life for the sake of my children. To accept that I had hurt them, too, by not changing earlier.

This is now 2 years ago; I have learned that I still do care, still have feelings, can still enjoy things, that I can have fun, that I do not have to feel guilty anymore, that it is never too late to start over again, that I AM HAPPY now!

To tell someone, "No." I was living with my in-laws. They needed help paying their bills but I was ready to move out. I was tired of not having any privacy and living under their roof. They were in a situation where they couldn't pay for the place they were in. It was impeding my happiness being there. I went to a post counselor and she helped me find the strength inside to finally say 'no' and get out of there.

To say "NO" to people who want to borrow money from me. Let's say you have a problem with gas money or your kid cant' go to school because you can't pay the tuition, I try to not to help the person because I know that she is broke because she spent her money on alcohol or smoke yet I still help her. It doesn't matter if I am so angry with that person, I still can't say "No". What's up with me?

Give my boyfriend 25 thou to sort out his debt.

Take anthropology class.