Okay, I’m going through stupid stuff right now & read when you like reading reality drama-ish stories! HELP!!!

If you hate reading then don’t read! It’s long.

Alright, I’m pretty sick & tired of this now. This has been going on for months & a few months back in 7th grade. Ok, there’s this popular, good looking jock who goes to my school & he came to my school ever since 7th grade. Just in a couple of weeks or days, he turned popular in a SNAP! Wowie, right? He’s good looking anyway with pretty, silky blonde hair [sorta brown too]. Anyway, I didn’t like him for the first half of the year in 7th grade because I thought I thought he looked like an ugly turtle with a big bobble head, although he was really nice [now, we barely talk; we don’t have any classes together this year! Thank god.] All the girls liked him, some still do b/c they’ve never met their [experience] boyfriend yet. No, I’m not going to tell you what his name is because he might pop out of nowhere & answer this question & might think this is about him. I don’t know his email though [just one of my what if’s]. Then we had the same class together in Art & he used to sit at my table until he moved because he talked too much. After a couple weeks later, I’ve got this feeling that he liked me because he started to have a staring problem! I do not like it when just one specific person stares at me for over like 10 seconds for no reason or not, it’s annoying. Yea, I may sound like an easily annoyed person but I’m not. That’s when I started to avoid him & tried to get his eyes off me. Then days passed by, he started complimenting my art works like crazy. That’s when I started falling for him because he was really nice & he started to look really cute ever since even though he looks the same. Ya know what I mean? One time, he swifted his shaggy hair & I melted right on the spot because he just looked sooo cute like that! Okay, when art class was over & I was skipping down the hallway & he was right there by the corner & I saw his hands sweating & he just standed there & looked like he was waiting for me to come by him. So when I was skipping almost passing by him, I heard him say “Wanna go out?” but I was speechless so I didn’t stop & pretended I didn’t hear anything, didn’t even look at him one bit & he was deffinently sounded like talking to me & I saw him looking at my direction. Right after I passed him, he said “FINE THEN!” with an attitude. I was all excited at lunch time & told all my friends & a few ppl who swore they wouldn’t say anything because I react to everything & I was being stupid! I always thought nobody would like me. Then one time, this girl found out that I didn’t get along with this girl & then she told her that his nickname was Brad & that I had a crush on him & told her that I said he asked me out but by that time, he didn’t like me nomore. & during those days when he liked me, he flipped my artwork just by the time I got back to the table & it wrote “I love Brad!”. He gasped & got shocked & started teasing me all about it & he thought that still I didn’t think he liked me that time but it was obvious. Couple days later, he asked me why did I lie & tell ppl that he asked me out. I said “I didn’t” because I was sorta scared. We ended the conversation by him giving me a harsh attitude but he’s not a person with a bad personality. Everyone likes him & his nice as an overall. Monthes later, I got a feeling that he liked me again because he started having a staring problem again. Then summer break started & school started this September. He started going out with this popular mean, snobby girl who used to drool over him. He used to have a staring problem until like 2 days ago & I’m not used to that. I liked the attention. I think I look different everyday…I don’t mean the clothes, hair, & accessories but my face. I think I sometimes look ugly & sometimes good but everyone says I look the same [face] everyday but I think the guy I like can see the same point of view as me. So he basicly stares at me most of the time but sometimes, he acts like I’m not even there & I pretend I don’t like him & don’t pay any attention to him at all because if his girlfriend finds out, she’ll toast me alive because she’s like of the MAJOR Queen Bees. The only reason I wake up everyday 20 minutes early in the morning is because of him, just to look prettier than pretty. I’m sick & tired of this now. He’s going on & off on & off, no confusing. I think I should end all this crap NOW!!!! So help? Anyone?